Good & bad impressions:

What kind of impressions will I leave behind;
an important role I must present for an important appointment that I can’t mess up.

An upcoming event that will put me in that special spot I been waiting to be at for a long time.

I must say and do everything just right and be in the spotlight. I have to try one more time, and hopefully be the one they choose doing this special interview. What have I got to loose, but I have everything to gain if I can make a good impression.

A side from this, I think of a couple good friends that i had and still have and how they left a good impression on my heart.

I often think of you my friend, and the impressions you left on my heart and soul, It is with out a doubt that I am lucky to have had the privilege of knowing you. Your a true friend who has cared about me and shown it in many ways. Although, we departed from each other our souls will always be connected. People come and go into our lives in different ways, leaving an impression upon us and it changes us forever, never leaving us in the same way. ❤👣

There are also people that have crossed our paths leaving a negative impression, causing some sort of discomfort or pain. This forever can change us too, but how we deal with it and/or recover from it determines the outcome.



Most of the time in my life I feel adrift; just floating through the momentum of time. Today was like an emotional rollercoaster.

I thought for sure I had this job in the bag, and I got the notification that they gave it to someone else. Here I go again; mad and sad at the same time. 😥

I even was told by one of the interviewers that she couldn’t wait to get to know me. Now that sounded promising. What a slap in the face.

I wanted to just quit everything; I emailed the HR person from the department where I am supposed to have another interview. I asked if they could give me any information, basically if they have someone in mind, and what my chances for the position is. I am tired of wasting my time, and going through this. I found out that I was chosen out of 176 applicant’s so I should be proud of that, but the down fall is after that. I have to stand out best among the ones they have chosen, it’s crazy.

Furthermore, I received another notice of another interview offer. This one would be a promotion, and well worth having.

I also inquired about more schooling, and some assistance with it, but my mind is going in circles. The only reason I am doing these two interviews is because I applied for them prior before I decided that I did not want to go on anymore interviews, I could hold a record. Very tired, and discouraged of this whole hiring process and all the competition I have to deal with.
You would bitch too, if you were playing a repetitive role over and over and over again, and again expecting a different outcome, but the results ending up the same each time. Uh!

Two more times to put myself through this, then if I don’t get good results I am done, and will take up a different avenue for a while, and refocus on other things, and get off this rollercoaster ride. Done!!!!!!!!! I’ll just go adrift through my life.


A Penny For Your Thoughts:

A shiny new penny I see on the ground I pick it up for luck.

Angels from above are watching over me.

A penny is a reminder that Angels are around watching over us.

Unlike us anchored, earthbound; Angles roam, are unmoored and fly from heaven to earth. Presently they are all around us everyday.

Protecting us, and sometimes have interviened during perilous moment’s.

If you see a penny, pick it up and all day long you will have goods luck.

A penny with the tails side up should be turned over for another person to find. On the other hand, many people believe any penny you find is good luck. You may hear people repeat a common rhyme to this effect: “Find a penny, pick it up. All day long, you’ll have good luck.”


We all descend eventually:

When we die, don’t forget to say, “Lord I descend my spirit into your hands”

How glorious when that day comes, we all live and die.

It is supposed to be all good, so why are we afraid. It must be of the unknown.

Of course we do not want to die a torturous death, no one does. We want it to be quick and not painful.

If this life is meant for the sole purpose of deciding ,then and if we make it to heaven and it suppose to be so much better, how come most people struggle and fight so much?

That question is just thrown out into the universe.

It’s just what we have been told is our course, we won’t truly know all the answers until the end.

English Standard Version
And John bore witness: “I saw the Spirit descend from heaven like a dove, and it remained on him.


Know them by their actions; The good, the bad & the ugly: 

People who commit crimes with a lot of money or power, and can spend a lot of money on defense attorneys; it usually end up turning into a big farce, and sick entertainment. It’s truly a shame for the victims who are involved and their families when this occurs.

Too many times we have all witnessed this. I don’t have to name names. It’s not the fake news and lack of factual information being talked about recently that I am talking about, it is the ones that have actually committed heinous crimes like murder or responsible for others to loose their lives when it could of been prevented. I think it comes down to not giving a crap about the good of the whole picture or situation as long as whom ever involved gets what they are wanting to achieve whether it’s getting away with murder or destroying someone’s agenda to try and do good.

The manipulation of it all; and how far it can go. What a sham. I guess what it comes down to, and nothing new is that it is all about power and money. Sad, sad, sad….

Although, there are a lot of good people in the world that actually do good, there will never be world peace, there are too many people with different opinions.

That’s why we have laws, but when the laws are broken and people because of who they happen to be are able to get away with it, where others wouldn’t, it becomes a very broken society.

Organized crime; people in the mafia , gangs have grown up this way and that’s all they know. Others fight and force their beliefs on other’s, and kill over it. Corrupters, manipulator’s, but out for there own agenda. So many like Jim Jones, Charles Manson, and some not so conspicuous. There, I did name a couple names.

The best way to really see where someone stands is there actions, actions speak louder then words. Not only just what’s being reported and can be based on unreliable sources, but actual factual evidence. Seems these days you really can’t get straight facts, what a farce, how ludicrous. It’s becoming more like entertainment than anything else. Shame on them that continue with this mockery.

God help us, and help those who don’t see the error of their ways. especially if it affects a myriad of people and nation’s.

Matthew 12:33-37; Luke 6:43-45)

15Beware of false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. 16By their fruit you will recognize them. Are grapes gathered from thornbushes, or figs from thistles?17Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20So then, by their fruit you will recognize them.

21Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’23Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness.’


Into the river below: via Daily-prompts Precipice:

Back in my younger years there was a precipice edge people would stand on and jump into the deep section of the river below. It was too steep for me, but I liked watching others who were bold enough to do it. I never witnessed any one getting hurt, thank goodness! If someone were to loose their footing or jump wrong; it definitely could of resulted in that. I was satisfied with just swimming in the deep swimming hole below on warm summer days. I also liked floating down the river either with an inner tube or without was better. I would just lean back and let the river float me down stream. I have not did that in years, but remember how fun it was.


Do you see what I see:

Is my green really your blue?
We are taught colors from the time we are young by others pointing to a color and saying what it is. How can we be so sure that our color perceptions are the same?

I don’t think scientists have proven beyond a doubt that this is so.

New research has led scientists to believe that may be true. In particular, people may not see all the same colors when they look at the same things. These scientists believe that color perception may not be predetermined like many have believed for hundreds of years.

I know when I see newly green grass growing in the spring, it’s bright and beautiful, and all the different colors of flowers seem to flow together.

I wonder if I saw grass as blue, and red roses as my purple and that is what I was used to if this would change me or my moods in some way. If blue Sky’s were more turquoise or red for that matter, makes you wonder and question if we all see the same thing, if we’re all collaborated in that way. I am not sure if the Bible even mentions if we all see the same colors.

In the beginning God created the heavens and earth, and we are created after his image, there is no qualm about that unless you are an atheist or agnostic.

I never searched or read anything along those lines that answers that question about if we all have the same color perceptions. Personally, I like the colors I see. I kind of believe we all see color the same, but it makes you wonder.


Help the Hopeless

The women with the grocery cart:

A lady I have seen pushing a grocery cart around the city where I used to work, eats at McDonald’s every day. She is small, and thin and wears a big hippie type hat, blue faded jeans.

A transient you would guess by looking at her, but no one knows what her history is or if she is homeless, at least I don’t. I don’t know if she was someone’s mother or not, but she is a child of God, like everyone else.

One day my children and I saw her pushing her grocery cart.

Curious about this women, but never had any conversations with her. That day I gave her some money, not a lot, what I had on me. I have done this periodically when my heart feels to show some hospitality for those in need. I know some just want booze, and some just don’t want to work, but some have no other means to support themselves.

Be hospitable for those in need, even if it’s just being nice.

Show love and edify each other when it’s in your hands to do so, and help others when you can. I feel this is everyone’s calling.

To all the mothers out there, Happy Mother’s Day!! 😊


It’s Final:

I would like to finally stop seeking a different job, I been on so many interviews I could make a career out of just doing that. I have one coming up this week, and I hope this is the final one for a long while, whatever the outcome happens to be. I need a break, I have had it, and that’s final. It would be nice to finally get that change I have been waiting for.

This will determine my decision in furthering my education.


Two little mice stuck in a maze: 

Two little mice stuck in a maze, running around chasing each other’s tails day to day.

Always in some conflict, but they knew no other way. Chasing each other’s dreams as the time passes away.

However, at times lost their sight, but later was able to reunite.

So they met in the middle and took each other’s hand and together they came up with a life saving plan.

Although they struggled at times, together instead they kepthroughout the path that hopefully leads them out.


How close are they to finding a cure for cancer?

I had a sister who lost her life to breast cancer, and several people who were close to me as well with other types of cancer. Millions are struggling with this disease and many have lost their lives from it. Here is an interesting article by Charles Swanton:

The problem – cancer drug resistance

Just last week, it was revealed that scientists have built nanoparticle factories that act as ‘Trojan Horse’ vessels which, once injected, can ferry chemotherapy drugs direct to cancers. In separate research on 257 women, scientists showed that two drugs, lapatinib and trastuzumab, when used together could shrink or even eliminate breast cancer tumours in less than two weeks. While exciting new research is on-going and over the last 40 years survival rates have doubled, many cancers – such as those of the lung and pancreas along with those that spread to other parts of the body or return as secondary cancers – still remain incurable.

Charles Swanton
Professor Charles Swanton in his lab at the Crick Institute CREDIT: GEOFF PUGH

The reason current treatments are often unsuccessful is because cancer evolves and mutates rapidly and cunningly, tricking the immune system and the drugs being administered to treat it. For example, take a drug such as Herceptin, used to treat the 15-25 per cent of women with breast cancer who have HER-2 positive cancers. Treatment with this drug targets some tumour cells, but can still leave behind a reservoir of cells which can potentially grow and become resistant to treatment. The same problem of drug resistance occurs with most such cancer drugs, known as ‘targeted therapies’. ‘It’s very like bacterial resistance,’ says Professor Swanton. ‘When you give an antiobiotic, bacteria develop resistance. When you give a chemotherapy drug, cancers develop resistance and stop responding to them.’

The potential solution – the body’s own immune cells

Professor Swanton’s team, based at the Crick Institute and University College London and funded by Cancer Research UK, found that even when it has mutated, a cancer still carries signature molecules which don’t change and can be spotted by the immune system’s disease-fighting T-cells as something that needs to be fought. ‘As cancers evolve, they develop mutations and when they do, these mutations can in some cases be seen as flags on the surface of the tumour cells by the immune system as being abnormal and so the immune system will try and tackle those flags,’ says Professor Stanton. But in the body, such T-cells are present in far too small numbers to pose a real threat to the cancer.

Think pink and cure cancer; for all who are and have suffered with this horrible disease- Hope!!! Keep your candle burning


Pursue through and keep trucking:

There are times when I am pulled in many different directions; trying to balance it all out. Taking care of family members, keeping up on finance’s, work, home, etc.

With little support and limited momentarily to keep it all in the right perspective’s. A sense of feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment. A good thing it’s only temporary. Things will get back on track and I’ll be able to get a grip on everything that going on right now.

When you think of our usual time expectancy on earth, and never know when it will be cut short; it’s a temporary moment considering eternity. Most people really don’t think about how temporary it is that we are here living on this planet.
What would you like to do or change if you could?
Life is too short, so don’t fret the small stuff. Live and let live, facing real-life situations as they come. Get done what you can, don’t worry what doesn’t, and be happy. Things have away of working themselves out or not. Keep in pursuit of your desires and dreams. Don’t give up on life even when you visit that as an option. Keep that faith and persevere through any obstacles in your way, life can change at any given moment.


Don’t get bitter, get better:

I have had my seasons of bitterness abounding within me, and I didn’t like it. I knew I needed to get rid of it.

Although, I might of had good reasons, usually when I wasn’t treated right, I knew it wasn’t healthy to stay in that bitter state of mind.

It took time, but then I learned to throw away my anger. Remove myself from toxic people, let the past stay in the past, and focus on the more productive things in life.


Missing my sister’s:

Growing up as a pseudo adult hasn’t been easy, but maturity eventually came. Growing up my dad was abusive and towards my mother. Back in the day when the cops were called. I remember them asking her if she wanted to press charges. She did not ever press charges, she did not want want to deal with all the repercussions depending on his paycheck with seven kids and not as much support for these kind of situations. It was dysfunctional. After his death healing truly began. I was the one who exposed the family secret, it needed to stop. I miss my sister’s right now. I wish I had them to talk to.

My two sisters who had it not easy either. We were all on our own at young ages, I was fourteen. What do you do; accept it, move on and persevere. We all have  wonderful  kids, but did the best we could. A new generation began. I miss my sister’s who are deceased now. No one can truly understand except god of what we endured. We made it better for our generations after, and God helped us to get through. Not to boast, but we became strong and carried on. We are survivors, and with our children lies a legacy to produce the healing and change needed. With our love and god above. Our seed carries on and will until the last days, having soldiers, and a strong blood line. A few bad apples, but restored due to God’s good graces and understanding ways.


Keep The Faith:

I have had better Days;

Sometimes days are not so great; you feel like no matter your efforts they are unnoticed.

Sometimes you have regrets, but can’t change the past.

Sometimes it’s hard to let go.

Sometimes you want to just give up, but don’t.

Sometimes it’s hard to believe that the future will get any better, but you still strive for better tomorrow’s. When you think, “there has to be a better way.”

You hang in there, pull up your boot straps, pick yourself up, and hold on to what you got.

Sometimes you just need courage to change the things you can, accept the things you cannot change, and have the wisdom to know the difference.

Life is like a roller coaster; full of ups and downs.


Nothing to feel panicked over: 

It’s just a little thunderstorm: 

Today was a very strange day, it was sunny, like a warm summer day; a little tease for Washington state.

Then all of a sudden a big storm comes in, and it starts thundering and lightening. The rain starts coming down really hard, and even had moments of hail. The size of hail was pretty large, like small gravel stones. It was nothing to feel panicked over, it was kind of a cool watching it come down so hard, with a few flashes of lightning in the sky.

My dog happened to be outside, and she seemed a little panicked and came running right into the house, and she usually likes staying outside. Now I am sitting here watching the clouds moving about thru my back window, which is somewhat captivating. That’s are wonderful, unpredictable Washington weather. Rain, sunshine, hail all in one day.


This Little Piggy:

This little piggy went to market,

This little piggy stayed home,

This little piggy had roast beef,

This little piggy had none.

This little piggy went …

Wee, wee, wee,
all the way home!

By: Mother Goose


Momentarily Out of Control:

I had no control when they moved us Office Assistant staff out of the Computer Service department where I was at, and moved us to the Records department due to consolidating the IT staffing through the agency’s.

I have no control of them promising they would reduce the amount of work due to staff cuts, but have not.

I have no control when my boss has four additional people assisting him, but has ignored my request for additional help.

I have no control when my new boss does not seem to be to concerned about providing this anytime soon.

I don’t have much control when it comes down to it, just a lot of thinking on how to problem solve to make my job less frustrating, it’s not easy when your not getting the assistance or support you need.

I just pray one of my job opportunities works out so I can get out of there, if this is how it’s going to be.

He is not a very personable or approachable person or maybe he is just a control freak.


Crazy Politicians

As some apprentice politicians, not all might start off with good intentions, but in time they end up being venal.

They start off with a good talk, but actions in time speak louder then words.

I get how Congress and the division among them can be hindering for completing agenda’s, but when they are caught red handed taking bribes, and out for their own personal gain, it ends up doing a big disservice for the public they pledge to serve.

And some end up doing more damage then good, which we have had some of those leaders in the past too. In addition, some well respected ones as well.

It’s a crazy world out there.


Not Done Yet:

Life is like my heart pattern blanket I started to crochet over ten years ago and never completed it. Both are not finished, this blanket, nor my life. The yarn is a pretty dark fuschia in color with white trim with single and double stitches.

Maybe someday I will finish it up, maybe when I am retired.

And maybe I will be satisfied with both my life and my crochet blanket after the yarn is all unraveled and the crochet patterns are carefully put in all its right places.

Pleased with the end results with thy self and in the eyes of my father above. ☺ God bless!!


Lavish Me

Lavish Me with that soft sweet scent.

That sweet aroma you’ll find so empowering like spring flowers lingering in the air and so beautiful to smell.

Buy me that special kind of soft top of line, better than Calvin Klein and that is just mine that smells so fine and one of a kind.


You have knackered me with all you say.
So don’t bother to stay; just be on your way.


The Mysterious Man:

Sitting there at the café she is approached by a young man who appeared to be in his mid thirties. He let her know he had been traveling from the city, and asked her if she lived around here close by. She looked up with a blank stare hesitantly, but distracted momentarily by his dreamy looking memorizing deep blue eyes that had a tint appearing purplish in color. He had dark brown hair with somewhat of a slender build to him and appearing fairly tall. Dressed nice, but casual wearing blue jeans and a black sweatcoat and tennis shoes.

The  day,  it happen to be was nice with clear skies and autumn leaves as fall was approaching closer,  leaves already had fallen covering the ground like a blanket.

Looking up at this stranger, she said, “why do you want to know ? ”   “Just wondering  mam if you could tell me how far is the next town, and where the nearest bus station is from here? ” She replied, ” the nearest town is another sixty miles from here, and the bus station is just up the street a couple blocks, the next bus coming through town usually arrives at about noon time, it’s ten o’clock now.” As she was looking down at her watch. He was staring out the window just then with this blank worried look on his face.
She asked, ” is there something wrong? ” He didn’t reply and kept staring blankly out the window, ” sir, sir”, ” oh ” he replied, ” I have something I need to ask of you, can I sit here and explain the circumstances? ”  With a discern look she gestered to the booth across from her. He sat, took another look out the window as if he was expecting someone to show up. She asked, “are you expecting someone?” “Yes, I mean no” ” it’s complicated.” She sais to him, ” If your in some kind of trouble maybe you should go to the police, I don’t want to be dragged into any trouble here, did you take something from someone?” ” Are you on someone’s hit list?” ” Maybe you should go.” Curiously, she asked, ” what is this about?” ” What’s your name?” “Quin”, ” well Quin I am waiting.” He replies nervoously to her, ” I am sorry”, and if anything happens to him to give this to the police. He then pulls out of his pocket a little computer USB device. He ask her what her name is and she relied, Rebecca. He then looks out the window and sees a dark sedan pulling up, and he sais, ” I have to go now, I have no time to explain, you have not seen me!” Frantically, he then gets up and runs out towards a back door of the café that leads out to an ally. Rebecca, sitting there in disbelief of what has just occurred, like something out of a movie script.Then she notices the device in her hand and hurriedly hides the computer device she was given.

These two men coming in who looked like mobsters, Rebecca, a little scared, but kept her cool like nothing happened. Drinking her coffee. The men looking around one walking towards the restrooms. The other one asking her how long has she been here and if she has seen a young looking guy with brown hair come in here? Rebecca replied, and said that she has been here for a little over an hour and no one has come at least since then. The other man comes out and says he’s not here, let’s go.

Rebecca still in disbelief not ever finding out what this mysterious man was running from, and why these people were so interested in him. She did turn the device into the police the first chance she was able to, making sure she was not followed along the way. The police would not reveal any information to her regarding this matter, and sent her on her way.

Rebecca could not stop thinking of this man who was so mysterious and in and out of her life so fast. His eyes is what she was drawn to, so unique, and his blank stare. She sigh’s, and although she knows nothing about him she hopes he is okay.


When I saw the daily word prompt today I thought of a couple things to write about:
1. The root of the matter
2. Roots of genealogy
3. The root of all evil

Notice how the word devil last four letters spell evil

I decided to put a piece I wrote about a letter to the devil who is definitely known world wide as  the root of all evil. Here is what my letter to Satan would say; The father of lies, the root of all evil, the wicked one; who’s roots someday will be plunged up forcibly. 

Dear Satan:

Your affliction on this earth will not be unpunished;
Very evil you are and hatred you sprung throughout the beginning of  your time, leaving your residue upon young and old hearts alike  leaving permanent scars.

Your existence someday will be no longer lingering under these stars.

You will be conquered, subdued and labeled as a stooge.

You won’t have any fun and games playing in the minds and hearts, but  only have a legacy of blame and shame. You will not make precious minds your personal playground forevermore, because you stink and we are keeping score. You did not get your way so you decided to separate and gather your impure cronies to use and abuse. You lost your heart and turned into a big fart. Your pungent aroma stinks all the way up to the high heavens.

Your time is limited, and back to the brimstone and fire from whence you came, and all your descendants who think the same.
You will be blasted, and destroyed like a tree that is hit by lightening with great big fiery flashes. An outlier cast out due to your fear that led you to vear away and sway.

Your reprobated mind  that makes you unkind will be lost and forgotten, no more possessing the beauty from when you first started.

Leave the souls alone that God created because you are going to be faded out, snuffed out and that is without a doubt.

You’re miserable and lonely, because you strived and thought you could arrive on top, holding that candle up so high as you could even compare to the father and son. You can’t hold a candle to God’s little man who grew up and saved the land by going to the slaughter like a lamb and inducing his beautiful power in the hearts of man.

Oh, goodbye evil one, we are all eagerly waiting for your life not to be under the sunrises in morning, or have you moving about like a raging lion ready to devour.

Oh, goodbye evil one, You are doomed, and full of gloom. Father of lies, but no lord in anyone’s eyes. Just the root of evil that you can’t disguise.

Death will become you in the last days, all awaiting avidly for this time to take place and replace all the sorrows for God’s loving grace.

Back to the grave once you go my dear evil one, and lights out so you can never grow. You sit on your pedastool and gloat, but in reality you have no hope.So you hold on to your evil for which you stand, you are not even a man just a despicable, disgraceful waste of space, undeserving  of God’s perfect grace. So back to the fiery  furnace  you’ll go with all your demons to explode, into  the dark grimacing fiery pit of no return.

 Signed, sealed and delivered, Amen! 


Fifty Shades of Grey:

When I think of gray, I think of the color, but also think of this grey to. The English language has a lot of words that sound alike, but have much different connotations, but that is another discussion in itself.

Everyone was making a big to do about fifty shades of grey.

For me, you could definitely tell it was written by a woman. In some parts it was just coming off too perfect like s fairy tale. ( Cinderella meets her very rich prince charming). And he’s all in to her with; of course with some very weird sexual fetocious, but I guess that’s what captured the audience. Fifty Shades of Grey is about:

When college senior Anastasia Steele (Dakota Johnson) steps in for her sick roommate to interview prominent businessman Christian Grey (Jamie Dornan) for their campus paper, little does she realize the path her life will take. Christian, as enigmatic as he is rich and powerful, finds himself strangely drawn to Ana, and she to him. Though sexually inexperienced, Ana plunges headlong into an affair — and learns that Christian’s true sexual proclivities push the boundaries of pain and pleasure.
This novel was written by: E.L.James.

In one scene he picks her up for a date in his personal helicopter. The twist was when he starts to get infatuated with her back, and she realizes that she can’t deal with all his S and M proclivities, leaving him heart broken.

It was OK for this type of novel/ movie, but like I said, I thought it was a little unrealistic and more on the fairy tale side, besides all the sexual fetocious this man had, for some it might be their norm or what their into.


My zip has zapped
How about that?
I guess I need more Java.

Sometimes in life you just have to know when to zip it
Some things are better left unsaid.

Pick your battles, and determine if it is worth saying or keeping your mouth zipped.

If you know that a situation can get into a heated conversation, you may want to  ask yourself,” is this something I really want to participate in?”  ” Is  it really worth it?” So you practice self control, walk away if needed to keep situations from escalating.

Most the time it’s over something trivial. At the same time,  there are those situations when  you want to tell someone to just zip it, “a nice way of saying shut the hell up!”

Just zip it,  and zip it good.


My Avid World: 

It seems lately that I been living an avid life; applying for different jobs, eagerly wanting to remodel and make restorations to my house. Wholeheartedly searching for God  knows what.
Soul searching avidly for my hearts desire, but not exactly sure what all that entails, must be going through some sort of midlife crisis.
Contemplating on whether I should go back for more schooling. Earnestly thinking about getting in better shape and losing weight. Needing to fill up my soul, I know that’s no mistake. Feeling quite empty, but also should be thinking more about all my blessings.
Feels like my head is spinning out of control and depressing my my very ol’ soul
Wondering where this blog is going, but I keep posting. Having an eager desire for something?
Passionately visions popping in my head of beaches, and traveling to different places that are a far. Retirement someday that seems I could arrange and not too much out of my range, but still to early to be engaged.
Enthusiastic about change living within my brain, not knowing the outcome or want to complain.
Stuck in this zealous atmosphere you call life. Avidly obtaining information on the way and ardently wanting it to all stay within my memory banks and my so called forgetful brain.
If anything, this blog is at least a good outlet to read, write and here others recite. Thanks!! Have a great day, and happy blogging! 😃


Perfect Harmony

Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight. Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.
As the Angels sing in a harmonious ring, and the birds chirping in the spring. Give thanks and enjoy the beautiful flowers and nature’s surrounding peaceful whispering sounds that abound in perfect harmony that’s around us daily.

Be as positive as you can be, nevertheless trying to be something that’s not meant to be. Believe in yourself and let it work out to stay in perfect harmony.

Be true to yourself, and others will see what happens when you’re in perfect harmony. Sing a song of melody and escape into nature’s reality and its whispering rings.

Every decision that we make leads us down a different road. We will never come to exactly the same crossroads. Every decision that we make has significance. The tiniest choice that we make reverbates throughout the entire universe.

“I would like to teach the world to sing in perfect harmony” 🎵🎼🎵🎼


Spike it up naturally:

Spike up the chemicals in your brain
You’ll be glad, it’s all the same

Find out if you have a deficiency and lack motivation to sustain and keep it all in careful perspective.

Balance out each component; not to overdue, but obtain happiness just for you.

These are the chemicals within your brain to help you sustain and influence  happiness.

Dopamine– In the brain, dopamine functions as a neurotransmitter—a chemical released by neurons (nerve cells) to send signals to other nerve cells. The brain includes several distinctdopamine pathways, one of which plays a major role in reward-motivated behavior.

Oxytocin– The higher your oxytocin, the higher your happiness and well-being, at least for women,

Endorphin– When you exercise, your body releases chemicals called endorphins. These endorphins interact with the receptors in your brain that reduce your perception of pain. Endorphins also trigger a positive feeling in the body, similar to that of morphine.

Serotonin- Serotonin is an important chemical neurotransmitter in the human body. … Serotonin that is used inside the brain must be produced within it. It is thought that serotonin can affect mood and social behavior, appetite and digestion, sleep, memory and sexual desire and function.


Source: What’s yours!!

Great Northwest By:JL

From the suburbs of southern California to a small town in the great northwest of Idaho.

It was a culture change for me from one to another. In comparison, the environment was so different, the warm nights of California to the fresh beauty of the northwest. Tall fur trees vs palm trees.

New people of the country side, the wooded mountains surrounding us. Waking up to the dew each morning.

The smell of fresh air. The folks in their bib overalls, and loggers in their suspenders.

The cafe and property my folks bought there. As we arrived our first stop was trying out the food and having breakfast in our new cafe. A regular quaint, casual cafe with a bar attached. Cabins around for people to rent. The bunk house in the back for seasonal loggers to stay while they were working. The school right next to the property, which was kindagardin thru the twelfth grade. A very small school. Montana’s boarder was less then a mile up the road. We were near rivers and lakes, and the Canadian boarder.
Spent much of my time assisting my parents and helping out in the café. I helped my mother clean the bunk house for the loggers when they were not there, some of them were sloppy, leaving a mess. We made all the beds hospital style, and there was quite a few of them. My older sisters were waitresses and cooked from time to time, bar tended. The funniest thing my mother did one day is she fired one of the waitresses, but the funny thing about it was what it was for. This particular person did not shave her under arms and she would ware tank tops, so it was very noticeable. Well sjhe was wiping off the tables, and my mother saw her taking the wash rag and wiping her under arms, then proceeded to clean the rest of the tables off with the same wash rag. She also fired my sister Jeannette one time for serving something she wasn’t supposed to. My sister said, “you can’t fire me I am your daughter.” Certain things you just don’t do running a business. I think she let both of them back after a while, But made darn sure they didn’t do stuff that could get the place shut down.

We lived in the house behind the café, my two older sisters shared a cabin, and my two older brothers shared another cabin on the property. Getting to know the other kids in town, they became like family. For entertainment we hung out on the school steps, and antagonized the local law enforcement there that said we could not hang out on the school steps anymore. Also, the bunk house on our property or had bon fire parties in the woods. We camped, went swimming a lot in the summer time, horse back riding, and being wild and crazy at times. They had a fun center for a time, until it was shut down. This is where all us kids hung out and played pool and the pin ball machines there at the end of the town. Never a boring moment.

After a while I got sick of restaurant food because that is where we ate all the time, and when I ate over at a friend’s house it was like going out to dinner for me.
I was so used to cooking on a fry grill when I cooked on a stove top it felt foreign. The cafe had old fashion equipment there, Peeling big Idaho spud potatoes using a heavey duty french fry slicer with a big handle. An old fashion milk shake machine that made the best milkshakes.
It was hard when my family sold the place I was close to the people there, and we were heading back to my parent’s home town in Berea Ohio to stay with my grandmother for a while. That is another story in itself.


The audacity of it all: 

The irony of it all I just had to chuckle. Games some people play. A former co-worker comes to work sick for two weeks. Gets others sick in the process, she could not stop coughing, and has the nerve to say, I can’t afford to get sick just because I coughed when she couldn’t stop previous. Not being able to distance myself from her during the time she spread her germs around everywhere in the office. I looked up at her “really”, she replies, ” I am just saying.”  I couldn’t believe she had the audacity to even have said what she was saying, but then again coming from her mouth, it wasn’t so unusual for her to say things to try and see if she could get ones goat here and there, one way or another. That seemed to be her personality towards others unless she could benefit herself from someone in one way or another. Just glad to be away from this particular person now.



Does your eyes not see me, does your heart not speak out to me, is your vision blurred and reality opaque to the truth of what you should apparently know, and not be forsaken for what really is so.

‘Yes I see, and your not opaque to me, my eyes are open and your transparent to me. You can’t hide although you try.
So why be shy, it shows through your hazy blue eyes, just as apparent as the clouds that are dispersed throughout the sky.

Sleepless nights😴

Sleepless nights happen too often, depression sets in and I am doomed knowing it’s going to be one of those things that is apart of my being. Accepting, I ride with my episodic lows. Although not a fun time , and emotionally painful thing to have, saying to myself, ” this feeling soon shall pass”.

Always glad not to be so sad, and the sunrises on the very next day.

Longing for a spiritual jolt assuring your still there, so I don’t feel so alone and on my own with much despair.

Extreme depression and agony on me, a soul seeking to be free, breaking this bondage of captivity.

Sad, blue and needing to be renewed. Open the door and restore the way so I can stay for another day.

Put on the pads of ressurection, begin the fibrillating process, electrical impulses to my heart, awakening those electrode’s in my brain giving me a manifested physically needed jolt and restoration.

Clean the Cobweb’s out of my head so I don’t feel so dead, and let’s do this together instead. ☺

J- Jesus Christ is our Lord and saviour

O- optimistic views expressed

L- Life, Love and logic

T- Thankful Because he exists in us.



Keep climbing those steps upwards;

Climbing up the ladder of job success hasn’t been that easy for me. I remember when I first started my job thinking that it would lead into other jobs, and it has somewhat, but not like I expected.
Even with getting some college, there have been a couple other people I know with the same degree, and it lead them into a job related field.
However, I am not ready to throw in the towel on it all, at least not yet, it still could happen.
Thinking about going back to school for another certificate in a particular field. This would definitely help for me to advance, but I would pay for it, and hopefully it would pay for itself in the long run. It would be nice to promote, but if I end up working where I am at for the remaining time of my career, that’s okay, it doesn’t define who I am, work is work.

However, there are many ways to climb the ladder of achievement and measure success; anytime you grow, learn, and have accomplishments in life it is good thing. Whether it be in achieving spiritual growth, or completing tasks, helping people, taking care of yourself, family, being there for your friends, it’s all good.

Changing the subject, this one mountain around here that people hike on all the time” Mt. Peak” keeps popping in my head. I want to hike it this summer. Also, another called, “Tiger Mountain”. I had an experience on Tiger Mountain once that was spiritual. I was hiking trying to reach the top. It occurred after my experience where God sat with me and created a new spirit within me.

He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, So great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us.… Psalm 103

It shall come to pass in the latter days
that the mountain of the house of the Lord
shall be established as the highest of the mountains,
and shall be lifted up above the hills;
and all the nations shall flow to it,- Isaiah 2-2

God bless, and have a Happy Easter Sunday!


So much to do, but such little time to do it in. 🙃

So much to do, but such little time to do it in. By the end of the week I am usually tired and the work day seems to drag on making it feel like a very long day. This tends to make me feel somewhat irritable and cranky. I am glad when my day is finally done, and my weekend has begun, but by the time I get home my energy level is low. Contemplating in my head of all what i want and need to accomplish over the weekend, but the list currently out weighs the time for everything in mind.
So I start prioritizing of what is most important to accomplish first. Wishing at this point that I could just snap my fingers and everything would be all done.

It was either no money to do the job, or finally having the money, but no time to do it in. This also tends to make me a little cranky. It would be nice to just play on my blog all day, or do something fun, instead of having some sort of work all the time that is needing done. There seems to be always something to do, but never fun. This weekend is Easter weekend and my platter is full. Its funny what the word prompt is for today because I woke up somewhat cranky and irritable this morning. I need more coffee, it’s been overwhelming and my world has been feeling a little bit up side down lately.🙃

Still somewhat cold where I live, and rainy. This tends to make people more on the cranky side too. Most folks around here are very anxious for some sunshine and more sunny days to come their way, and I am with them I have had it with this gloomy weather and rain.


1Do not judge, or you will be judged. 2For with the same judgment you pronounce, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.…Mathew 7, 1-3-

If I were a tree how would I measure to ‘thee; 🏝
Would I stand tall, or be ready to fall?
Clumped together and no where to grow, or
Stand alone, isolated, and on my own.
Would I be fruitful and multiply, or barren and deprived?

What kind of tree would you make me;
A weeping willow with long sad beautiful sweeping branches, but quick to root or;

An Apple tree that’s bright red and deliciously sweet ready to eat or the Pine tree sticky and full of sap?

How about a Palm tree to be traditionally picked (Palm Sunday) or a Japanese Pine cylindrical that measures in shape. A Monkey tree with spiney leaves or like the Dogwood tree that prolifically blooms.

If i were a tree how would you see me?



Timely awaiting for your arrival tonight
For I been waiting a long time
Can you be so kind
Give me some peace of mind, and show up on time.

Rainbows in the morning
Shooting stars with clear skies and an auspicious moon rising at night.

A wish come true so I won’t feel so blue. With much surprise looking at me with those koliedodscope eyes

Bright lights and summer time themes has me thinking of seasons you spent with me


It’s natural for a person to want to please their parents and be accepted by other’s. No one wants to be in the company of being around someone who is not pleased with you in someway or another.

It is the same way with your spiritual father. I can say, that I think most people would like God’s acceptance of them and know it.

I am middle aged now, and about 17 years ago approximately I experienced some amazing spiritual things and had an open connection with God, and he allowed me to see many different things, and told me future stuff about my life. It was a confusing time, and hard to believe, but it really happened.

I had no sence of direction, and he provided the way.
God had mentioned to me when I get older he would be pleased with me. He did not indicate how old though. I feel I am older now, but not sure exactly when this will occur. I trust God so this is good to know. I thank God for his grace, mercy, and prayer, and I thank all his hosts in heaven as well.


I am what I am
I am the alpha and omega
I am the ruler and King
I am the morning sun
I am the one to unravel the mysteries from a far, and beyond the stars.
I am the scope that gives hope, and the one to light the way and shines through the dark and chase your nightmare’s away
I am the reason for the season
I am the key to set you free
I am who I am


As the Eagle soars the earth, and the Bear roams the land, , like a Dragon over the field, and a Hawk in the sand.

Deceptively united, truthfully devided.

Exploded in perilous times, and nature not being so kind.

As the moon rises and the sun sets, the Lion stands to unite the lands, as the venomous snake coils up silently before the strike.

Bombs lighting up the sky like the northern lights of firey flys, fields burning like a red Sea with frothing edges of no return.

The kingdom is stung, Catastrophe has begun.

People are wandering Blindly into dawn’s new day of the unknown.


SHE: Caught up in a web of deception: By:JL

In the glitter depth within her heart, she worries about the days to come.

She holds onto her lover ardently and tries not to get caught up to whole heartedly.

She is caught up in a web of emotional deception and despair. Her soul has taken a toll and she weeps every day.

She no longer cares about finding true love’

She asked herself, “what is true love anyways? ”

Searching the depth of her soul she should be letting go, but continues to remain in a tenacious grip that makes her trip. Not readily relinquishing her position, letting it control and being dispositioned.

She wonders why she can’t move on, is it because of love or an emotional bond?

Is it wrong, is it right, should she put up a fight or just leave his sight.

Should she leave it all behind and hope to spiritually find what really matters most, without losing her mind or just be kind.

She avoids the pain that hinders her gain, so she sits on a fence that sits up high afraid to jump off and touch the sky.

She knows in her heart  what is meant to be will be. She could be you, she could be me.

She sits and wonders what it is she is meant to be. She is just a girl who wants to be free.


That moment when a storm has passed
And when a rainbow bends across the sky
OR when the caterpillar finds it’s become a lovely butterfly –
When night gives way to dawn’s new day
When hope outshines the heart’s despair-that’s when we see God’s perfect plan and understand the power of prayer.

When people loose someone they love;-others should be patient. It is on their own time that they grieve and how long it takes them,and when they could heal from a loss. With time, and prayer, no one gets over it when someone else says to, but when they learn to adjust to a new normal for them. Not as what they were used to when that loved one was around.

My prayers especially go to those who have lost a loved one to suicide. God is with you.

RIP- Jody, Jeannette, Julie, Benny,Chancey,Brenda, Robin, Fannie, Linda,Michael, Doug, Nikki, Gwen, Angie, Dan, Janet, and Georgy 🌷



A horrifically and insane attack on the Syrians from their own Government, a crime against humanity upon innocent civilian’s. Chemically gassing their own people. Fathers, Mother’s watching their babies die and gasping for air.

How can one be so evil to put upon his own people?

What will happen in their world, the broken hearts and minds. Excruciating pain they must be going through, and hopelessness. Dreams shattered, and bodies scattered.

Power, greed is not what these people need, but many prayers and support from the other nations.

May God bind your wounds and heal your broken hearts. If this is not stopped it could happen more and more to others. God bless all the nations of the. world, and the innocent who reside in it. May the nations stand united against evil dictators. As these people wonder what now, I can’t imagine, may God provide a safe haven for them.


Seeking growth and advancement in my career

Yesterday’s gone, today’s a new day. A little melancholy with my job situation. I had an interview yesterday, and it went OK, but as an outlier looking in, wanting to finally here those words of acceptance, ‘we have made our decision, and you have been selected for the job’. Instead of, ‘although your credentials are impressive, we have selected someone else’. Now it is just a waiting period, and can’t get my hopes up too high. There are quite a few other candidates, and the competition is high, percentages of actually obtaining the job are very slim to none, but you never know. All my endeavors may pay off. I tell myself not to give up, but I am a little tired of it all, and nothing has panned out so far for me within this system I am in, but feel like an outlier, and can’t seem to move forward or land any promotional positions I have applied for, but I have been on many interviews I got to give myself some credit for that.


Denial daily word prompt:

Her gut instinct told her not to meet with this person by herself that she has been chatting with on-line for a while. He seemed nice, romantic, harmless, but she knew in her heart it still wasn’t a good idea.

They talked about life, love, and funny things that happen. He said he was divorced and trying to get on his feet and start over. Meet someone, and get to know them, and possibly have a long term relationship.

She suggested they meet up in a coffee shop or restaurant, but he told her he had only a small window of opportunity to see her before his trip, and he had to get ready for his flight. He wanted her to meet him at a Hotel he had been staying at, he explained to her prior that he hadn’t settled down in a new place yet because his job required him to  frequently travel all over the world, He also expressed he couldn’t wait until he got back to see her because he wasn’t sure how long he was going to be gone, and wanted to meet her in person before he left.

He said his name was John Stevens, and she went by the name of Sally Roads. Well Sally was about twenty seven years old, and single. She worked as a nurse at night, and been caught up in her job and put her social life on the side for a while. Most the people she knew were already involved with someone or she wasn’t interested in them that way. She decided to join a chat room on-line and that is where she met John. He made her laugh, he was witty, and always seem to say the right things to her. She’s heard the horror stories of people meeting on-line, but in denial that this man she grown to like could ever have intentions of hurting her.

Although, against her better judgement Sally decided to go meet John on his terms. She thought well just in case I will call my friend Kim, and tell her what I am up to. She had mentioned John to her before, and concerned, she would always tell Sally to be careful and if you end up meeting, go to a crowded place. Meet his family, and get to know him very well before you go anywhere by yourself with him.

Kim pleaded with her not to go, “it sounds fishy”, but Sally said, ” I’ll take my chance’s.” They joked about him being a serial rapest or killer, but she really didn’t believe it to be so.

She told Kim if I am not back in a couple hours call me, and come look for me. After a few hours went by she decided to call Sally, and she got her voicemail. She thought at first Sally was messing with her, but then became more concerned as more time went by. She went to the Hotel where they were supposed to meet, and no one had seen her, or heard of John Stevens. Sally never made it to the Hotel, he must of intercepted her before they went in, and lured her some where else. She called the police, and told them what happened, but it was too late, she was gone. Days went by, weeks, never knowing what happen to Sally, she never was seen again.


MY COUGAR ADVENTURE:-By:JL-Champion word prompt

One of many Gods beautiful amazing creations.

A November morning during hunting season, we got up my spouse and I, and put on our winter cloths. We wanted to make it to the hunting site by the crack of day light. We loaded up our guns. I had a modified 300 Savage rifle. The stock was cut off just right to fit my arm. It had a recoil pad on the butt of the rifle. A nice Leupold scope, and a strap attached. This was one of my favorite rifles.

We drove up towards the mountains to the woods and parked our vehicle. We got out and proceeded to walk a little ways down to an old logging road. As we kept walking, the road inclined and we started to get into some clear cuts and we were able to view other mountain ridges near us. It was beatiful. As we climbed in elevation, the air was getting thinner and it felt colder. I remember the tips of my toes, fingers and ears being cold even though I dressed warm.

When we would go hunting, it would usually be an all day event unless we got lucky and we’re able to get something right away. I had a new sense of appreciation after spending all day out hunting. After walking all day, hiking up hills, down trails, hungry,cold, and tired. It felt like heaven to finally get home and warm up, and enjoying some homemade fried potatoes with onions and deer steak.

Although, we did not Champion that day on getting a deer,”settled for tag soup” we definitely saw some wild life and it was an adventure I will always remember. We saw a black Bear and her two cubs (a sow) going up the Mountain Ridge near us.

However, the most unique wild animal we saw that day was a Cougar.We were walking up the logging road, walking upwards, and came upon a big Cougar. It was only about 10 to 15 yards away from us, if that, it was very close. We froze looking into the eyes of this big Cougar Cat. As it was looking at us as well. I noticed a tracking device around his neck, so this Cat was caught before by the Game and Wildlife organization. We had a good look at this beatiful Cougar Cat. The Cougar ended up turning and fleeing from us. We had our guns thank God, just in case. In the Northwest especially walking in the woods you should always be prepared. You never know what wildlife you’ll run into, or how these wild animals will react. I am glad we did not have to shoot it protecting ourselves. Close up I could not believe how large these animals are, just like Elk seeing them close up. This Cougar Cat was big,huge.


Have you ever had a dream that felt so real that you had to check yourself and ask, ” is this really happening”?

Waking up, distraught one morning, on the cusp of still being a sleep and awake. I had a dream I murdered someone, and I was going to jail for s very long time. My life of what was, was over. It wouldn’t take long before the police figure out who was responsible. For a moment, feeling so devastated, and worried. When I came to realization, that this was only a nightmare, I felt so relieved. “Wow, thank God I told myself”. “This is not really happening”.

My youngest daughter was having some problems with her former boyfriend at the time. She was not letting on how abusive things really got between them. I believe it was him that I shot in my dream. His name Adam and in my dream he was in a gang, I saw him on a sidewalk on the side of a fence. I shot at him with a pistol I had. I then remember trying to hide his body in the woods, and putting him behind an old log laying down in some clear cuts, and wild shrubbery around the old log. This was crazy, my brother was there trying to help me. I was able to see the homicide task force looking around the area of where the body was hidden, and I felt if they found his body it would be linked backed to me, my emotions were very intense. Contemplating whether I should turn myself in or not. I woke up, and for a few second’s I was very paranoid and feeling like I am doomed. I am not a killer, and don’t know why I would have such a nightmare like this.

At the same time, it could of been because I was working at a psychiatric hospital and the patients I worked with were either long term categorized as NGRI or there for evaluation of NGRI (not guilty reason of insanity). In addition, my daughter’s relationship with her boyfriend at the time might of had a play in it as well.
All I know is it was crazy, and it felt so real.

‘Dreams are often most profound when they seem the most crazy.’ Sigmond Freud

A dream can sometimes feel incredibly real – as if the sensation experienced are actually happening, but then as we wake up to everyday reality we cannot make sense of anything and wonder what it all meant.

Through the centuries, the dreaming mind has been credited with being the source of ideas, insights, revelations and guidance, some of which have changed the course of history. Here are a couple examples, Julius Caesar’s decision to cross the Rubicon is attributed to a dream in which he saw himself in bed with his mother (Mother Rome, the seers told him.) His assassination was foretold in his wife’s Calpurnia’s dream.
St. Francis of Assisi founded the Franciscan Order because of a dream in which Jesus Christ spoke from the cross, telling him to ‘go set my house in order’.


Dreams that terrify us of cause distress in some way by waking us up before the situation occur during REM sleep and typically arise when a person is feeling anxious or helpless in waking life. Once the dreamer has recognized what is triggering this kind of dream, and worked through any unresolved fears and anxiouties, nightmares tend to cease.


These are similar to nightmares, but because they occur in deep sleep (stage four) NREM non-rapid eye movement- deep sleep, when your brain is released from the demands of the conscious mind. Most people don’t remember their dreams during this stage or what terrified us, although we may be left with a lingering feeling of unexplained dread.


Dreams that reoccur typically happen when the dreamer is worried about a situation that isn’t resolving itself in waking life. Could also be when a person is suffering from some type of phobia.


Hope,in a hopeless place. 🌹

Her marriage failing, she decided to move out of the house, her husband became  verbally abusive towards her. They tried counseling, but as time went by she felt they were growing more and more distant from  each other.

Both through out the years were starting to take each other for granted. They stopped appreciating each other and working on their marriage. In the end they were just co-existing in the same household. Although she moved out, she decided to be prudent and weigh it all out before she would leap right into the divorce process.

In the bottom of her heart she held on to some glimpse of hope that something would change between the both of them and they could reconcile, and she would not have to go through this upheaval in her life.

Only time will tell, she tells herself, so I will prudently wait and see what my future holds for me.




I am on a journey like others and try to keep on the right path that is best for me. I have had different opportunities in my life and meet lots of new people in the process. I am blessed in many ways, and believe in the end it will be all OK.

I like the outdoors, real life stories, reading, family, and friend get togethers, and got amused when my 94 year old grandmother played her game of 31. May she RIP.

I am learning how to stop and smell the roses once in a while and just take a pause. In my life I always had that feeling of being on a constant go, like I was in a race. Sometimes that would still my opportunity of joy and living in the moment.

Learning to let go, and let God run the show. Not let the worry or that feeling of if I don’t accomplish this now my window of opportunity will pass me by. I found if I am in an indecisive situation or struggle with something personal that I need victory over, but just can’t seem to conquer it completely, I take a pause from it and come back to it later.

Life can be full of personal challenges and sometimes our mind having different members are not always synced together as they should be. The heart wants and the mind says no not good. A pause, or vacation can be exactly what’s needed or long overdue.

I do not like to much stress or drama in my life, and like to be around real everyday people. By JL

” Courage is the discovery that you may not win, but try when you know you can lose.”. By Tom Kraus

Later works 🙄

Today we drove a hundred or so miles to go empty a couple storage units we obtained a few years back.

We should not of had it as long as we did. We kept paying each month and putting it off until later, but we finally have that behind us now, and can start on the many other household projects that need attention.
My husband tends to procrastinate, but once he gets himself on the right track, although sometimes seems like stuck in turtle mode, we get a little bit more accomplished each year and closer towards our goals.

The trip went well, we left in the morning, my husband driving, it was rainy and in spurts it was hard to see in front of us, especially on the pass. The roads were the same way, in spurts they were not in the best condition. You think they would be better considering how much they spend working on them.
However, they do have a lot of traffic on this Hwy, including truck driver’s. Once we got over the pass the weather was warm, sunny and long needed being that it rains a lot where I live. I think when I retire I am going to make it a point to go south for winter.

When we got to the storage facility, we rented a big U-Haul truck and loaded up our stuff. We did good considering it being just the two of us. We had carts to load the stuff on. The couch and few heavy coffee tables, heavy headboards were a little tricky.

I followed my husband on the way back home. When we stopped on top of the pass it was beautiful, not raining at the time, but had patches of fog circling the snow covered mountainsides. The ski slope was right in view and still had snow on it, although closed for the season.

It was just the last part of the trip that was nerve-wracking. It was raining and starting to get dark, and the other driver’s and their darn halogen headlights glaring right in my eyes. I have a hard time seeing anyways at night, it was awful and had to just focus on the red lights in the back of the U-Haul truck that I followed behind. I think those lights are illegal to have, and their dangerous. Blinding the on coming traffic, I slowed way down a couple times because of it. In the same way, those people who don’t turn down their high beams are just down right inconsiderate drivers.

Otherwise, it was a good trip and feels good to finally close out the storage units we’ve had for so long, and we made it home. Since we did not do this sooner, later works. 🙄


Fortune:Angelica's debut

Traveling for the first time in her Life. Angelica O’Neal was riding the grey hound bus heading to Hollywood. A small town girl, she was one of the ones selected to audition to premiere in a big ‘Broadway’ debut.

As her thoughts are rolling around in her head, her nervousness rises as she gets closer towards her destination.

She wonders if she will be one of the ones selected to move forward and receive her long awaited dream. Her role is one of the main characters she would be playing, Juliet in the big hit play from ‘ Romeo and Juliet’

Her voice is beautiful, angelic like her name. She has been in chior practice since she could remember. She has worked hard taking advantage of any available acting class she could, and the one chosen usually for lead roles. Her dream to one day be a super star and be in the spot-light.

She knows the competition is high, but she has talent for people to see. “Will this be her big break, her moment of fame that she longed for all her life, her dream come true, She asked herself, or will she fail miserably? ” “How can I stand out, she asked herself? ” ” How can I get them to beleive I am the one for this particular part?”

“If this is not for me, could they use me somewhere else?” Oh, the thoughts she had rolling around in her head.

She has never wanted something so badly in her life. Will she be one of the fortunate ones to get the part and get what she wants in her heart?

She arrives to her destination, and prepares for her audition session. She steps out on the stage in front of the individual’s who will be judging her on her performance. Hoping to be a success and not fall flat on her face, she gears up and tries to keep her composer. She then starts to sing.

The judges drop down their clipboards, amazed as she keys up in in her song, they are memorized by her voice. As she felt herself allure them in, she became more comfortable with herself , and less nervous.

With Angelica, it wasn’t only just the fortune and fame she was after, but her hearts desire to be a big star someday. She loved being in the spot-light. If she is successful, she will have her moment of glory, her big break!

Angelica has never imagined herself doing anything else, but to entertain other’s. Oh how she ate it up when she received a lot of attention after her performances from the crowd. Angelica has been fortunate to be born with an amazingly good voice, a special gift from God.

After her performance, it sounded like she landed it, the judge’s gave her a standing ovation and said, ” Ms. O’Neal, that was amazing, and you will be hearing from us soon, well done!”


Passport and places: Daily word prompt

I have never applied for a passport or been out of the United States. It would be nice someday to get that opportunity. Where would I want to go, well many places?
Maybe Italy, Australia, Japan, or Mexico.

I have been to a few different states in the US, and Hawaii once, which was so nice. I lived in four states, California, Idaho, Ohio, and Washington. I would love to go visit New York at least once, and to the New England states.

I have ancesters that were one of the first settlers in Delaware. The Old Swedes Church still stands today and is a historical landmark. A couple of my ancestors are buried in the old burial grounds next to the church. My Grandfather’s last name is Springer, and Christopher Springer name is recorded in some of the historical records that  pertain to the Old Swedes Church.


The Springer story in Delaware begins with a tale that sounds like it’s pulled from a movie script. Carl (Anglicised as “Charles”) Christopherson Springer was born in Stockholm, Sweden in 1658, but went to London as a boy to study. After completing his studies, at about age 18, he decided to return home to Sweden. Before he could, though, he was kidnapped, put aboard an English ship, and sent to the West Indies. From there he was shipped to Virginia, where he was sold as an indentured servant. In Virginia he served five years, essentially as a slave, doing what he referred to as “unspeakable” work, clearing fields for the planting of tobacco and corn. [A transcript of a letter to his mother, recounting his tale, can be found here.] After serving his five years, he happened to hear of a community of Swedes 400 miles to the north, in the Pennsylvania colony. He walked all the way to the settlement along the Delaware, joining his fellow countrymen in the New Castle/soon-to-be Wilmington area. Charles Springer became a cornerstone of the community here, and was one of the founders of Holy Trinity (Old Swedes) Church.

In pursuit to live:

In pursuit to live:

A few years back before my sister died of breast cancer; my Neice met up with a guy who’s wife died of cancer; one of the leading cause of death worldwide. (Cancer is a leading cause of death worldwide, accounting for 8.8 million deaths in 2015. The most common causes of cancer death are cancers of: Lung (1.69 million deaths)
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The guy my Neice met was involved with a group of people who were in pursuit of coming up with a cure for cancer. Due to legal restrictions, their findings were never allowed to go anywhere. However, some dead cancer cells were found from my sister’s test results. Treatments for cancer these days have many adverse effects.

She stayed in Ohio area for a little while, but ended up returning to her home and passing away after the cancer had manifestated into her bones.

The thing that the ‘Ohio buckeyes’ are famous for is they like to honk their horns a lot. If your stopped at a stoplight, and the light turns green, and if you happen to stall even for a moment, the horns start sound off immediately to the point of annoyance.

My sister tried what she could, but it was too late. She realized her fate, and had no choice, but to accept it. Her way of dealing with what she was going through and to get her mind off things was to simply just color pictures. She was emotionally strong person, and that has always been one of her possessed qualities she obtained.

I’ll never forget her response to those annoying Ohio honkers, that drove you bonkers, and was a little too obsessive She gave a couple of them a California solute, and flipped them off. Maybe not the most appropriate response, but well deserved. I never heard it anywhere as bad as I heard it there. ‘Road Ragers’!

In memory of Jodine Marie Gardener- Honk in memory of those fighting for their lives. Keep all who lost their lives in your thoughts and prayers.
Or reply: “Honk”
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In pursuit of something new;in hope’s to not feel so blue.

Continuing my education has been on my mind for awhile. I finally pursued, and signed up and accepted into a healthcare information management program to obtain my BAS degree. I knew it would not be easy and would take time and dedication, but didn’t realize how challenging and time consuming it would be. Although, I am making it through, some of the assignments are just down right challenging. The reason I chose this field is because of my previous education into this field. Doing it all on-line and it seems that they cram so much in a little amount of time. If I can get through these two courses it will be an achievement and hopefully the rest of my courses won’t be as challenging for me. Medicare and all their calculated adjustments can be complicated to say the least. Although, this field is not totally new for me, this aspect of it is. I guess I am a neophyte to it, and lacked the actual experience of it. I guess that is why I am pursuing to continue my education. I am thankful for being able, and found a way for it to be possible. For the Veterans who served and are serving, God bless, and a big Thank-you!!!🇱🇷🇵🇷🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸


What’s your poison wine or beer?

Do you prefer coffee, or tea?

Halloween or Christmas? 🎃🎄

Ones preference is in the eyes of the beholder; some have higher preference than others. We are all uniquely designed with thoughts differing from one to another. It would be a strange world if we all preferred not only the same things, but was wanting for nothing. Nevertheless, it would be very boring.

Someone’s dreams can turn into a reality, where another person’s dreams simply never comes to a head or gets off the ground. That is just life, and with this said, disappointments, regrets can follow. It’s not fun feeling disappointed in your life, and coming to the true grips of reality that your life simply did not turn out how you once expected it to.

Once someone told me that if you change your perspective of expectations rather it being upon a person or simply desire something to happen by just accepting things that are and as is, than your not as impacted by it as much when things don’t go your way, and you’re less likely to feel disappointed or have regrets over it. Unless you do something real bad of course and have to deal with the consequences thereof. Anyways, people are having to make decisions most of their lives on a regular basis, and often find themselves wondering if they would of chose this path where would they be at this moment in time. It’s all a normal thing.

Rom.12:10- “Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another”

Happy Halloween!!!!🎃🎃🎃🎃


When dignity is lost:

You can’t help people who refuse to help themselves; you can only pray for them. Just like the old saying, “you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make them drink it.” Losing their dignity along the way, not considering how they effect the ones around them. Staying in their world of sickness and addiction, making many excuses and creating many afflictions upon themselves and others around them. Driven by fear and anxiety, ignoring their responsibilities.

What do you do? Send them on their way to fend for themselves and wait until they hit rock bottom or end up in a psychiatric ward or die?

Forgive them because they are sick, but don’t get caught up in their tricks. Fed up!!!! When someone you know gets themselves down low and losses their digity!!!!!!-


A visceral feeling of agony:

I felt it deep down in my thumb joint when I was getting a cortisone injection in my hand yesterday. Although, the last injection was uncomfortable, this one was much worse. They had a hard time getting into the right spot. They used too big of a needle, it was mentioned by the doctor to the nurse that a number three size neeedle should of been set up, instead of a number five they were using. The doctor had to pull my thumb out and was moving it around, and I could feel the grinding in there from the needle. Also, mentioning something about not enough numbing medicine. It was torture, and trying to hold still. The needle they were using finally went into the right spot where the doctor wanted it to go. When the cortisone medicine finally went into my thumb joint, my hand felt like it was going to explode.

So painful, and I was trying to endure through it. Couldn’t wait for this to be over with. I felt flushed a little because of the pain, and light headed a visceral feeling I don’t want to feel again any time too soon. It took the rest of the night to quit throbbing. It helped with my other hand after a few days. That’s how this type of steroid works, if it does. I have osteoarthritis and bone spurs in both my hands. Eventually, will probably have to have surgery. I didn’t cry, almost and wanted to, but just kept saying ouch!!


Daily word prompt: Trance
Keep your mind out of a stupor:

Don’t forget to meditate, turn your mind off. Careful for confusion, and don’t let your mind get into a stupor. Drugs and too much alcohol will do this faster than anything. Putting your mind into a trance of confusion where your mind is vulnerable, and your enemies can devour you.
Be sober-minded and alert. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.
For those who have a condition:


I just want to simply recite praise and glory to my lord Jesus Christ and all his hosts. I don’t do it enough even though I am very grateful for all he has done for me. On my three year revival, I had a hard time praying and the Lord asked me why I was not praying. I was broken more then,and it was hard for me to do so at that time in my life. I talk to God all the time, and when I don’t know what to pray for I pray this prayer first; ” The Lord’s Prayer”
Matthew 6:9–13 (ESV) “Pray then like this: ‘Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.'” “For thine is the kingdom, the power, thy glory forever”, ” Amen”!
Secondly, The Lord is my shepherd
; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.


Here I thought God wasn’t in my corner, as I take steps, God took steps for me. Action taken seriously to try and get
a couple work issues resolved and make my boss see more clearly. Thank you God for helping me reach out to the right resources with my plea. Although, not perfect the real underlying issues unfurled some today.
Nothing is more maddening than not being considered or being discarded when your request you feel are reasonable. He is singing a different tune, and I know he is pulled in different directions, but doesn’t give him the right to disrespect his subordinates and pay them no nevermind with things he was directed to look into a while ago by his bosses that is having great impact on the production of things. In addition, ignoring the requests for help. Administration promised to reduce the work since they eliminated one of the positions out of three doing the job, and using the other for coverage of another position leaving me a loner doing the job of three, and no extra help. I posted a sign of a women climbing a huge stack of papers for a joke stating job security, and he made me take it down saying it was negative. Too close to the truth I guess. He just not a joking kind of guy. His boss came walking through, and I said, ” look” gestering over the mass papers I had to enter, and he Ironically stated, ” job security”, lol. Small steps unfurling, and someday my life will unfurl and pick me up like the wind and sail me across smoother waters.


Daily word prompt response: “Jiffy”

Getting the many projects and remodeling done around my household does not come in a jiffy. Wish we could afford to contract it out. Major projects are no fun, when will it be done? Plans never come. Overwhelmed with much work to be done, with continued postponements and a myriad of excuses under the sun. A slow process it has been. Basically, my patients is wearing thin. ” However, I realize Rome wasn’t built in a day”! Again, neither am I done with all my endeavors. 👦


” Deliver me oh Lord”

I need a true delivery from my crazy world; surrounded by the self centered people in it. Out for their own agenda’s and inconsiderate ways. Trapped with no way out, and not being delivered from the evil influences that holds me momentarily captive.

Forced into conflicted situations that I do not much enjoy, which makes my journey that much more challenging than it should be. Hit on all four sides, waiting to be devoured up by raging mad dogs unleashing their claws.

Feeling powerless with no where to turn, but looking forward for the future and waiting for my turn. “Oh, deliver me from evil lord and guide my ways”. ” Help me from giving up, and bring my hope up”.

“I lift my eyes up to the hills.

From where does my help come?

My help comes from the Lord,

who made heaven and earth.”

-Psalm 121:1-2

Save me from my enemies, my God! Keep me safe from those who rise up against me. Psalm 59


Don’t worry be happy

It seems these days I have to amble in to different situations I face slowly; any slower it would be in slow..turtle mode. My co-worker/ partner quit and is venturing on to new horizons. She hadn’t been in the position very long and left without any notice to our supervisor, well my supervisor is not taking it that well. Anyway, she ended up with the better area and desk location, so I want to move where she was. I am in there full time, and the next person will help cover the mailroom part of the time. My boss in his stoicism type personality didn’t want to here of me taking the desk she occupied for seven month’s. She’s gone, not coming back, when is a good time? I was stuck doing the majority of the work load anyways. If I amble myself towards him maybe I won’t have too much problems with it, but than again he is an unusual person, and it was crappy not getting notice, but it is what it is. He can get it posted right away for new hire. There are going to be many people jumping at the chance to get a permanent position. Maybe karma is catching up with him, if he would show more support to his subordinates in his mannerism once in a while, he would get it in return. He needs not to worry and be happy, at least this position isn’t frozen like the other he can’t fill permanently. Not sure, hard to tellwith him if he is taking it personally. Doesn’t talk too much unless spoken too. When he doesn’t want to deal with something or do something for someone he states, ” well revisit it later”. Like a parent saying, “will see”.


Bittersweet Symphony:

Losing my sense of purpose, it certainly does not feel comfortable. Stuck in a day-to-day rut. Feeling like an outlier. Looking at myself as though I am looking at myself through an hour glass. Enduring myself, and going with the flow each day as I wait for something to come my way, but it never arrives regardless how much I strive.

Trying to stay in touch with the reality of life, and deal with the darkness that surrounds me. Thinking I am being punished from above, although I know better and realize this isn’t so.

Trying to be possitive, make the best of what I got, as I slowly sink down into my depressive state of mind. Although, the symphony of entropy continues on, and a symphony of trumpet’s are starting to sound, heard from above as we are told.

Ups and downs of living can be tough, when all you want to do is get by without having not to struggle so much. Not given any breaks from the misery of others around singing the same old symphony of entropy and song and dance that their acustom to. Stuck with the stoicism that seems to abound through the atmosphere all around.


Today’s Daily Word Prompt- ‘Toothbrush’

When I am not using a toothbrush to brush my teeth, I am using one to brush my brows. Of course not the same one. I have several toothbrushes due to having spent much time at the Dentist. 😂

At times when I am not getting my brows waxed, and feel my brows need trimmed up I brush them upward, and with some small precision scissors I will trim them up and thin them out some.

I didn’t start plucking my eyebrows until I was about twelve, they sure needed it by then. They were starting to look like Brook Shields brows. 😱 I remember my sister’s holding me down while they took the tweezers to me, and they were not so nice about it pulling several out at a time. Now I get them waxed usually, sometimes tweeze and I know you shouldn’t, but when I get in a hurry I’ll shave them up. Mostly though, I’ll have them waxed along with any other unwanted facial hair that comes after forty.

My brows are thinned out naturally to their shape where my sister’s went beyond that and had their brows real thin like a line. Later, my oldest sister tattooed hers in. They looked OK on them, but i just stuck with making mine more natural and plucking the long unruly ones that stick out.

A toothbrush can be used in many ways; brushing, cleaning, grooming, etc. Getting into tight places where other bigger devices don’t reach well.

Pearly Whites is what you see these day’s in comparison to what it used to be. Teeth were not bleached out like they are now a days.


As The River Runs Through:

The water runs swiftly over the rocks as the river runs through up to higher  spots. Looking  down at the  revine from a far, standing on the  edge and watching  the river below as she felt  the breeze on her face and the sun setting behind the mountainside.

In aw of all its beauty that is surrounded by her. Breathing in shallow, slow  breaths, relaxing her chest, and meditating as she let’s  go of all her stress. Forgetting about the days to come and focusing on moments under the sun.

Another world, another place that is remote and pest free from the polluting sounds of industries, set aside from  shallow mindedness and madness of the daily hustle and bustle of the big city streets,  loud noises of trains, planes, and automobiles. People  scamper about, making a mad dash in and out of heavy traffic and walking the sidewalks about.


Keep Good Traditional Family Values:

As a custom we carry our family values and traditions onto our children and loved ones, teaching, hoping it carries them on through generations that follow. We hope to break the dysfunctionality of what was forsaken. Carrying on the good aspects of values that were worth holding onto, getting rid of the bad. Because of course we want our offspring to be better than us, and carry on that legacy to their children’s children, and so on.

Psalm 78:4
We will not conceal them from their children, But tell to the generation to come the praises of the LORD, And His strength and His wondrous works that He has done.


The Prowler:

Looking up, the night was clear the stars visible appearing in the sky with vibrant beauty. The half moon radiating with some light in the night. The smell of the fresh forest that surrounds the area and numerous trails with one that leads to a lake with homes set up around to a beautiful spring fed lake. Sounds of twigs breaking, and chirping from birds, squirrels and other critter’s that harmonize in the night. Cat tails growing around, fish jumping, and docks that have been built that come out onto the lake.

Having walked around in a mile radius already from the habitat that the big Cougar came from. The hungry hunter prowling around in the night looking to satisfy his needs with his blood thirsty appetite for meat and needed nutrition for survival in this rural untouched area of this forestry.

The Cougar came upon some homes. With gleam in his yellowy cat eyes he spotted chickens running around a yard. Watching with strategy, he sits and patiently watches,waiting, plotting to kill these poor defenseless birds and the need to feed.

With his speed and sharp pointed strong teeth, this pray is no match for him. “The circle of life where the strong survive in the ruggedness of the wilderness,”. A wild cat in the habitats of the great Northwest. Hypnotized and engaged in their activities not taking his eyes off his dinner. No worries of danger for himself; just a killer in the night under the moonlight after midnight in the twilight.

Timing it just right the wild cat slowly and quietly approached his game of Hens.” Chicken delight” he’s thinking will be good tonight. Just then he makes his moves and before the hens knew what hit them he pounced on one, then two. Chickens frantically clucking loudly, and trying to run with fear couldn’t flee fast enough to escape this fatal final days of their lives. A total of seven chickens in a single night.

The homeowner woke up to see that her chickens were killed by this viciously, merciless wild creature of the night and was devastated. Called to inform the Game and Wildlife Association, and being it was my mother’s neighbor warned her of this big Cougar cat who will more than likely come back, and to not let her domestic cats and my nephew’s little dog out.

Now she will be watching for this hungry killer of the night, and try to defend her livestock from the sharp claws and teeth of this wild critter who stocks the night and homes for unprotected prey. Will this creature be caught, hunted, or shot by the homeowner protecting her livestock’s? Are these creatures in the night a protective species in this area? However, on ones property I believe it’s allowed for your protection and securing your personal property to shoot this big Cougar cat, a natural hunter by nature.



It seems my life all around has been very dormant; A stand still, a stop. With promotions, with fixing up my house, spirituality. Like I am waiting to wake up and begin something new. Although, active very much so, but ike running in my tracks and not moving forward enough.

I always here there must be a reason why your where your at. “God has you right where your supposed to be for a reason” . In away I agree with this philosophy. At the same time, I believe it’s all luck, and what is individually applied as well. Still not so sure on the entirety of this statement and if it’s an absolute truth to it. Possibly, if God directed your whole path. I know God has directed my path in a lot of ways, but it was still my choices to persist through. I guess with achievements, success, and whatever your trying and willing to accomplish will come eventually or not, and disappointments to follow as well.

Like a maze when one path leads to a dead end, you turn around and seek another path to follow. Being able to be patient, and some things are just slow and your waiting for a period of time for. Feeling like your alive, but not actively growing in some areas.

Being in and out of depression can cause me to go dormant too; captivating my heart, instead of feeling free to be, and although not healthy way to stay for long periods of time, it happens. Additionally, not to get yourself in ways to make you feel captive or negative in your soul, surround yourself around good people, and try to stay on the best path possible until it all unfolds and in the end you don’t have a lot of regrets.


Matthew 7:13-14New International Version (NIV)

The Narrow and Wide Gates

13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

What do you suppose this actually refers too; very few find it? My opinion, that we are all sinners and fall short from the glory of God. When you become a born again Christian God, our Lord Jesus covers us, and God sees us as pure. So why try, are we automatically saved?

Psalm 138:8- I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

As you grow in Christ he does a work in you, and you become an open vessel for the Lord, and he can use you to help others. He can also guide you when your your not so open, he is always there. I believe this statement above refers to spiritual levels. ” Very few find it” I don’t believe it’s referring so much to whether one is actually going to be saved or not because no one is perfect. You just try, and if you sin, repent and try not to repeat your mistakes. God sees your heart.

About Grace:
Slaves to Righteousness- Romans:

What then? Shall we sin because we are not under the law but under grace? By no means! Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness? But thanks be to God that, though you used to be slaves to sin, you have come to obey from your heart the pattern of teaching that has now claimed your allegiance.You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness.

Romans 5:12) “For as in Adam all die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive” (1 Corinthians 15:22). From Genesis to Revelation, the Bible is clear that each one of us is responsible for our own actions. We reap what we sow and we sow the death penalty by all rights. You could take the most righteous man or woman of God you know and put them in the Garden and they would make the same decision that Adam and Eve did. We can also not put all the blame on Eve because she was deceived. Adam went into it with his eyes wide open. He had no one to blame but himself. So Adam and Eve are not responsible for our sins…we are! We can not claim to be any better than they were or that we would not have made that decision to eat of the forbidden tree. We have the advantage of having the Book of Genesis and knowing what happened and what would happen. They didn’t! Was it Adam or Eve tapping you on the shoulder telling you to sin? No!


She Couldn’t Tailor To It:

Not a tailor type of job:

Yesterday, a new girl got fired. She started out there two months ago. A facility that cares for DD client’s. She was very different, and had some social disabilities, possibly other conditions such as ADD.

She was placed on alternate assignment and that’s why she ended up in our department; “Records”. It wasn’t the fact that she was gay or even dressed like a guy; there are quite a few gay people who work where I work and a lot of diversity, and they had no problems, It was her behavior. She expressed she moved in to a town near by with her girlfriend, but it didn’t work out. She was devastated. We could not talk to her because everything we said reminded her of her girlfriend. It got kind of bad there for a little bit. Not exactly sure why she was written up, it is not supposed to be talked about while under investigation.

Even told her not to draw too much attention to yourself, she did not listen. She would email the director with bazaar stuff, missed too much time. Very sensitive girl, needy, and seemed not to have found her niche in life. Looking for someone to hang out with, but hadn’t found anyone compatible with her. Even if she was cleared, they foreseen problematic traits in her that they didn’t want to deal with, I suspect. When your new and not permanent, they don’t need a reason to fire you. How they did it was not too private, we all felt bad for her, but felt she brought it on herself. I asked why did they fire you, and she said, “because I have a disability”. I don’t think it was just her disability that got her fired, she has been fired she said from numerous jobs. She did not have a very good year, and I can’t help feeling sorry for her. Hopefully, shell get some sort of counseling. People working on the houses would not of been as tolerant of this person as we were, bazaar she was, but we did not want to say anything to her to hurt her. I did pray for her and hope she finds her niche someday. A lot of people mistake her for a boy, and embarrassed when she tells them she is a girl. She said she is used to that.

She ended up moving out of our department for a short time to the kitchen area, but ended up back because it didn’t work out there, she said that manager was hostile towards her. She couldn’t tailor to that either. You could see it in my bosses face at times, that he had to be patient with her. Her questions were off the wall, she would interject in conversations a lot. Doing other things besides her work on the computer. If she doesn’t get some sort of help she is going to continue to have many struggles and challenges in her life. She probably feel’s like an outlier in life.


Don’t bumble with your life:

This is from Dr. Geetha Krishnaswamy, Please give your 2 minutes and read this:

1. Let’s say it’s 7.25pm and you’re going home (alone of course) after an unusually hard day on the job.
2. You’re really tired, upset and frustrated.
3 Suddenly you start experiencing severe pain in your chest that starts to drag out into your arm and up in to your jaw. You are only about five km from the hospital nearest your home.
4. Unfortunately you don’t know if you’ll be able to make it that far.
5. You have been trained in CPR, but the guy who taught the course did not tell you how to perform it on yourself.
6. HOW TO SURVIVE A HEART ATTACK WHEN ALONE? Since many people are alone when they suffer a heart attack without help, the person whose heart is beating improperly and who begins to feel faint, has only about 10 seconds left before losing consciousness.
7. However, these victims can help themselves by coughing repeatedly and very vigorously. A deep breath should be taken before each cough, and the cough must be deep and prolonged, as when producing sputum from deep inside the chest. A breath and a cough must be repeated about every two seconds without let-up until help arrives, or until the heart is felt to be beating normally again.
8. Deep breaths get oxygen into the lungs and coughing movements squeeze the heart and keep the blood circulating. The squeezing pressure on the heart also helps it regain normal rhythm. In this way, heart attack victims can get to a hospital.


Her heart did a little caper as he closely came towards her.
He grabbed her savagely, and passionately kissed her on the mouth. Her knees felt weak, and she melted right into him. An activity of escapade as they say.


What a shame; people pay their medical premiums, put their money into medical insurances, dental insurance companies and the so called benefits allotted are just savage on what, how much is actually covered. The cost of medical services are even more savage. America’s medical cost is much more expensive than other countries. So corrupted, most people are choosing the penalty vs paying for Obama care premiums. What does that tell you on this failed so-called affordable medical insurance. Yes, the poor might benefit, but welfare provides medical assistance for low income people. At the same time, not having a choice and being penalized over it, that right there is dictatorship. The medical profession doesn’t even like this insurance. The monopoly that is set up currently needs to be open up to make medical insurance more competitive, and this will lower premiums. In addition, where is all the money going; the lotto was supposed to help with schools, roads, etc. Marijuana revenue, where is our tax dollar’s going? Inflation keeps going up, and our so-called increase in wages are a joke because insurance premiums go up,up, and up.


Venture out of your comfort zone:

Sticking to the same old local routes, set routines and familiar places can get pretty mundane after a while.

It is easy to get caught up in complacency; not venturing out once in a while.

Broaden your horizons; show yourself new sunrises.
Take time to check out some new places and faces.

Keeping your big wheel a rolling!



My mother has been the back bone of our family; although can be enabling somewhat, she always looked after her family the best she could. No she was not perfect, but she like most mothers is like a protective mama bear looking over her cubs. She took my nephew and his son in, and allowed them to stay there at her house for several years, she allowed my brother previously to stay, in turn they helped out the best they could. However, due to broken, dysfunctional circumstances my brother and his son relationship is very strained, and my brother, sister in law have serious medical issues on top of it. Currently, my sister in law is there with my nephew to help out my mom. She is getting older, having medical issues, and possible first stages of Alzheimer’s disease going on that I have to have addressed. I am over three hundred miles away from her. It makes me cringe of the ongoing dysfunctionality that has occurred all these years in my brothers immediate family, and how each one of them has put other members right n the middle, each one of them having a different story. At this time I asked that they put their differences aside to provide a low stress environment, and not make it about them for once. We all need each one of their help, and not hinderence. I am committed to my kids, husband, family, and have a lot on the horizon to get through this process. Life is full of commitments. I can go on, our jobs, family etc, it’s life, and although can get tough and stressful, but when you got family and obligations you lookout for one another. At the same time, be responsible and pull your own weight when you have the ability to do so.

2 Thessalonians 3:10 (ASV) For even when we were with you, this we commanded you, If any will not work, neither let him eat.


It began with a journal:

It began with a journal; then surprisingly, it turned into a healing tool, having the holy spirit upon her. Pen to paper she recorded her thoughts, feelings, and words that were flowing through her. Messages she felt from above revealing truths discernable to her.

Then it turned into a journey being led by the spirit, layed in the arms of an angel, she let herself go. Whispers of wisdom and truth she had heard. From the Southeast Ocean to the Northwest she was led. Walking in the moonlight on the streets at night, then climbing up a mountain to see the sites in the daylight.

Dreams and visions were revealed to her and put to a test, and it was hard to rest. Her spirits broken with no hope, then with time, graciously her heart spoke, and her soul was patiently filled with hope again. Now it’s nothing but blue skies and less cries. By: JL


Americans,it’s time to get down to business:

It’s absolutely disgusting and beyond belief of all the political rhetoric happening, that’s not freedom of speech, it’s enticing violence. Stepping way over the boundaries and crossing the line. I don’t think when they wrote the Constitution that they had this in mind what has been happening lately. I will be relieved when and if it stops on both sides, and we can get down to what’s important for the American people. Years ago, when kings and dictators ruled the land, people had no say. It’s hardly like that now. Go to a communist country, they have no say. Freedom of speech doesn’t give the right to entice violence on anyone, no matter what your beliefs are, when you do or entice violence it’s breaking the law or conspiring to break the law
America, and especially all the politicians, put on your big boy and girl pants and start working together for the American people, and not for your own special interest. Hilary out of the picture, so any rhetoric like the resistance as she started, just causes division among us. Throw that crap away. People are getting shot at, look what’s happening around the world, it’s sad. We don’t have buildings and bombs falling on us on a daily basis, not yet. United we stand, divided we fall. President Trump has a lot on his platter, and with allegations against him without any substantial evidence is a distraction away from real issues going on. Like him trying to free Americans held captive, and one American released, but severely impaired from being injured by his captives, and much more on his platter. Congress, the President and this administration needs Americans to support it. Even if your a Democrat, it’s not your time, work on your party in an honest fashion because now, the far Left isn’t looking so good or trustworthy. Now would be a good time to address the nation to give people some sort of hope, but with all going on, I am sure this administration is working around the clock.


Message in a bottle.

Lord my heart breaks; I should not of left you. I am sitting here shattered, and not where I want to be. This should be a time for you and me.

Even now, I am selfish, and don’t deserve your help. I have done things to avoid pain; digging myself in a deeper hole, remaining in captivity, and took up my own reins instead of letting you lead me. You told me you would have my back, giving me a song of deterrent.. I need to humble myself. Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned again.

When I was a youth I didn’t know what I was feeling because I was in survival mode and my feelings were placed in a bottle, and some were scattered about. Now I have all these feelings that I have to face. I sure need your mercy and grace.
I now need to take the bull by the horns, of course letting you lead, I cannot do this on my own. My health, my heart and my soul are at stake, Do or die and that’s no mistake. Now, I am starting to see the light, and understand what needs to happen to be a delight in your eyes, I just wish it wasn’t such a great flight. Although, you are most powerful, and nothing’s impossible for you; once thinking that you were a Jeanie in a bottle, I know now that it isn’t always so. I send out this message across the oceans blue, in a imaginary bottle just for you Lord.


What’s happening in our society today:

Blossom daily word prompt:

Read to the end:

A cop kills a teenager and people go crazy. Why didn’t he taze him he is only a kid. He should have subdued him, he is just a kid. Cops need better training. Cops shoot first ask questions later. Cops are trigger happy. Cops are racist. They shot him because he was black and they were scared.

This is the headlines and stories the majority in this country follow. You fall victim to the propaganda. You make me absolutely sick to my stomach sometimes. I consider you the weak and pitiful of this great country.

How come there is no outrage or attention about the 17 year old kid who shot Deputy Derek Geer of Mesa County Sheriffs Office in Colorado?

The deputy did what you all beg law enforcement to do. He attempted to taze the teen and was subsequently shot multiple times. I’ll repeat he attempted to TAZE the kid and was SHOT multiple times.

Deputy Geer is now on life support at the moment until his organs can be donated.

You see Deputy Geer swore an oath to protect and serve. At this very moment his life is ending while at the same time his organs are being removed so he can continue save others.

Deputy Derek Geer you are a TRUE HERO and should be honored by all.

Sadly only those in his family and community and his brothers and sisters in law enforcement nationwide will be the ones to really give a rat’s ass about Deputy Geer.

To those still patrolling the streets I beg you to block out the noise from the naive and untrained naysayers.

DO YOUR JOB and do it well, as you are trained, and never worry about what others will think. Do the right thing always but never lose sight of the number one goal. Go home to your loved ones at the end of your shift. Posted by Mark Connelly

I ask for those that cared enough to read this to please take a moment of silence for Deputy Derek Geer. If you feel inclined share this with others so maybe people will begin to understand.
Enough People !!! To all that this reaches, please read to the end. Let our public servants serve !!!! Stop defecating on the very ideal’s that have kept us safe and free to choose to obey or disobey, freedom to choose ones faith, where to dwell and work. By: ML

I agree cops need supported and better training, on both sides of the coin there have been tragedy and injustice from wrong doings and excessive force from individual law enforcement, to the opposite end; attacks on law enforcement. It all needs to be dealt with on individual bases without prejudice. I feel for those families who have lost loved ones unnecessarily.

This is the year 2017, it’s about time the law is up held to its entirety without biasness. God bless America and may we blossom and respect one another more prolifically abroad. May more godly, good people teach and guide our nations. Amen! By: JL

PS: An old family friend Jerry just published his new series of children’s books and they look pretty awesome. more information about Jerry is on my first post page scroll down to bottom to see more about the Lunch Bunch Books. 😊

“Oh, the fun of renovation; slowly, but surely it will come”.

Living in a state with a lot of moisture tends to make more needed maintenance than one wants to deal with, but is a necessary action one has to take living in these types of weather conditions.

So far we had to replace our roof. That was a process in it self, attempting to find the most reasonable way didn’t pan out too well, and with my husband having some medical issues going on at the time. We finally had to shop around and hire a professional to do the job, but you get what you pay for, it turned out beautifully.

However, we still have a lot more to do. Prior to replacing our roof we had a few leaks, and it did some minor damage on the front, inside of the walls and ceiling. We don’t know exactly the extent of damage until we open it up. In the meantime, we bought some kills paint, which we are going to paint all our walls with, this will help to protect against mold and moisture we get around here. Then after that we can create our own design on what color each room should be.

in addition to all this we have much more renovations on the horizon, replacing some siding and painting on the outside of our house, finishing the dog run we built a while ago, redoing, and remodeling our bathrooms, sorting out what we want to keep, and discard, reorganizing the garage, redoing kitchen cabinets, replacing carpets, flooring, porches, some landscaping. We have our work cut out for us this year that’s for sure, and if we can get some of it done this year it will be a big plus.

As we plug along with all our project’s maybe we will think of some practical, creative ways to reach our renovation objectives faster. At the same time, were working on downsizing and getting rid of the crap we no longer need or want.


People come in and out of our lives all the time; sometimes it’s good, sometimes not so good. With each encounter though it helps mold us in some kind of way. It can build us or break us, but one thing it certainly guides us or drives us.

With pleasure, also can come pain. Life is about choices, and sometimes it’s not easy knowing which moves to make that’s best, kind of like a chest game. We try to survive and seek victory and defeat all obstacles standing in our way, without getting taken out of the game. Life is full of the unknown until it happens, Like knowing if your with the right partner or not.

Love changes in every relationship; initially it’s great with euphoric feelings, cant get enough of each other, but even though you still care about each other after a few months or years that initial euphoric feelings you once had tapers off. This happens in all relationships and it’s a normal course.

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it’s learning to love the Person you found. Love; not just a feeling it’s a choice.

Choosing to stay in an unhealthy relationship is a choice to, it was never promised that life would be easy. All our lives we are dealing with decisions to make, and it’s usually for the betterment of our well-being. Myself, I made a choice to accept Christ as my personal Savior, does that make me perfect, no. It just makes me saved, and it’s my choice to draw closer to God to build a relationship to help me on my journey during my duration upon this earth. I know I haven’t in my past made the best choices on my own, and would rather be able to have that spiritual guidance that only the Lord can give me.


Trials and tribulations:

Triumph over trials help you become stronger.

Just not so fun when battling a while.

Enemies arise and try to cramp your style, and you cannot smile.

Hitting you when your down, and you start to frown.

You find your inner strength; get yourself back up, and not stay stuck in a rut.

You tell yourself when you want to scream, “hold tight”, “endure”, because ” this too shall pass”, I will triumph over this too, life can get tough.

When we are weak our higher power is strong to help us triumph over our trials and tribulations we may have to face.
Be true to yourself, and everything shall fall in its entirety.

Victory can be yours; if you faithfully choose the most healthy lifestyle you can, and whatever you face you can overcome it. Love, live, and let every moment count.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; Proverbs: 3:5.

Corinthians 2:14

But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere.


More of my personal spiritual experiences are on the last page of this site-true testimonial events that happen during a three year period of my life. God exist and he loves us more then you know. He has a plan for his children.

My story– One of the visions the lord gave me during my three year revival time was that he took me back to a period in my child hood where I was living in a house that had some spiritual disturbances in it, rumor was people had died in the house prior, cold spots in certain areas, unexplained noises. Anyway, I was in my parents big master bedroom, looking out their bac window and I felt a real evil spirit below me, and felt this spirits hatred,which made me start feeling fearful of something be!ow wanting to attack me. When Jesus brought me back to that exact moment in time. I saw myself there, but this time Jesus was on my left side with his hand on my shoulder comforting me and showing me that he was there with me, protecting me in this time when I felt fearfu!l. Jesus is with us alll, especially in times of fear. PS. 23:4- Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff comfort me. He has been with me always and has shown me. I had to be reminded of that again, that God has been with me my whole life, like he is with everyone. He sits at the door and knocks, he wants his children to trust him.

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multiple of sins.1sr. Peter 4:8. 😊

Another revelation I had with the Lord is I was thinking and trying to make a deal with Jesus that if I was able to go to heaven I would be a servant to him and everyone else there. As if I could get their by good works. I told the Lord that I would do the laundry and wash everyone’s robes, imagining that they were white robes, humbling myself visualizing giving the Lord his clean garments. ☺silly me. Well the Lord’s reply was there is no laundry in heaven. Well that is good to know because laundry is not my favorite chore to do. By: JL


The cold crisp wind blowing on our faces.
The night is bright as we are near the midnight hour.
I feel your warmth and power as you hold me in your arms, and kiss me under these stars.

Looking up I see a star shooting across the sky; I make a wish and just then I see a horse and carriage pull up beside us. We get in and it turns out to be a romanic moment as we ride down the streets of London. Holding each other tight under the moonlight on a cold crisp night with the stars so bright.

Sky bright, and starlight’s envisioning candlelights glowing, as we see a big clock , it starts to strike at midnight, I wake up and realize this is but a dream.


My wardrobe definitely improved:

When I was younger my parents could not afford to buy us kids that many cloths. However, we found different ways to get them. Some of them were borrowed, some given. I swear my sisters invented the patched jeans that were natty then. Some of their jeans had hardly any Jean material left. The patches on their pants were sewn on pretty well.

I hated hammy down cloths, I didn’t have a lot of cloths growing up, but now I have plenty. I have donated a lot of cloths as well.

I come from a big family, but both my parents worked, and I only remember getting some new school cloths one year. Not too often after that, not sure why they did not have any money to afford it. They seem to have had good jobs?

When I was younger, I would dress myself, and didn’t always pick out things that matched, I heared it for about two years from one of my peers at school that my cloths didn’t match. I did let my mother know, but that didn’t help, she picked me out an outfit that didn’t match either, lol.

What was she thinking back then. I sure didn’t have many natty cloths.

My younger children definitely were a little spoiled in this department, their grandmother grew up not having a lot of cloths, so she would let them pick out name brand cloths. Having this luxury, I thank they were greatful, but also took it for granted a little, and didn’t appreciate as much as my older children.

During Christmas my spouse and I were able to work overtime and holidays and give my kids money so they could hit all the after Christmas sales. This is what they wanted, and they could pick out their own stuff and go to the mall with their friends.


Bring my heart closer to you Lord:

1 How long, LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3Look on me and answer, LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,

4 and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me.

This Psalm from David says it all; I cannot speak for everyone, only for myself. Sometimes I have felt  spiritually distant from God. Saying to myself, “where are you Lord?” ” Have you left me?” However, the bible teaches us different that he is always with us. I have not always felt that because I don’t always feel his presence. Just because I don’t feel his presence 24/7 doesn’t mean it’s not true. I don’t think it’s God distancing from us, but we get so caught up in our own lives that we are the ones that distance from him. In addition, he could be carrying us. Draw closer to him and he will to you.

In my life due to certain circumstances, I have put up a wall of protection and distance myself somewhat emotionally, and I know I have kept this wall up, and have not brought it down all the way. Will it ever come down, idk, but I believe in God, and that he has my back.


Going into your own imaginary world is a great escape from the day to day realities you face.

You can imagine a beautiful place; a lovely stream and the sunshine that beams down on your face.

No worries at all, just you and your thoughts big and small.

You can dream that your rich and famous or infamous or nothing at all.

You can imagine your a hero and loved by all.

Imagine having the perfect mate or wonderful waterfalls.

Think of flying in a spaceship or walking on the moon.

Drifting away on a cloud or boat or climbing up a rope.

Imagining the world being a better place; one without so many tears, fears and doubts.

Dream of heaven and all its glory; and try not to think of hell and it’s misery.

That’s one great thing about having your own imaginary world to escape to once in a while; your in control, and no one can steal that from you.


There’s a few passages in the bible regarding brass, bronze and iron; I always admired brass candles and antique items made of brass. On the other hand, and not to admired is brassy blonde hair.

Then a champion came out from the armies of the Philistines named Goliath, from Gath, whose height was six cubits and a span. 5He had a bronze helmet on his head,and he was clothed with scale-armor which weighed fivethousand shekels of bronze.6He also had bronze greaves on his legs and a bronze javelin slung between his shoulders.…

in Revelation 1:12-14.

“His feet were like burnished bronze when it has been caused to glow in a furnace.” What is that? Red hot. You’ve seen metal in a furnace, glowing, burning brass, or bronze. By the way, as a footnote, all of the temple and all of the tabernacle furniture that was in any way used in a sin offering was always brass. When you see brass in this situation, you know it has something to do with sin. And here you have feet glowing hot…very clear reference to judgment

Short poem:

As she stared at the brassy lit candlelight; glowing in the moonlight with a delightful color of yellowish and a fiery red blaze.

She became mesmerized by the bouncing flames; that helped her relax into that peaceful place within.


To lose weight it’s not only just portions of how much you eat, but what you eat as well.

It’s especially hard if you’ve been a person in the past who could eat the usual fatty foods and not gain a lot from it.

As we get older, our metabolisms can slow down as well as our activities.

Bottom line; no sacrifices made, no gain, just on your butt.

Most people if they put their mind to it can have success. That’s where a lot of us fail, and I am one of them is not sticking to good eating habits and eating proper portions, drinking more water and less soda. My down fall is mocha’s in the morning, even if it’s sugar free, it’s still full of a lot of calories. Probably should switch to Latte’s , which is made with water instead of milk.

You also have to want it bad enough, along with the willingness to make better choices.


Source: The good, the bad & the ugly:

OFF Course

Lately my life seems to be unbalanced and going different directions. My finances lately are not balancing out and can’t seem to get back on its tracks.

Money goes fast if your not careful, I wish I can detonate certain things, and start all over again or at least feel like I have a handle on it all.

Having enough would help at this point, with all unexpected expenses coming up, but just got to hang in there and hope things get balanced out soon. Meanwhile, I have to strive through and hope my head doesn’t explode at this point with the stress of it all. Everyone wants there money now, well they will just have to wait until I get it.


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One of many Gods beautiful amazing creations.

A November morning during hunting season, we got up my spouse and I, and put on our winter cloths. We wanted to make it to the hunting site by the crack of day light. We loaded up our guns. I had a modified 300 Savage rifle. The stock was cut off just right to fit my arm. It had a recoil pad on the butt of the rifle. A nice Leupold scope, and a strap attached. This was one of my favorite rifles.

We drove up towards the mountains to the woods and parked our vehicle. We got out and proceeded to walk a little ways down to an old logging road. As we kept walking, the road inclined and we started to get into some clear cuts and we were able to view other mountain ridges near us. It was beatiful. As we climbed in elevation, the air was getting thinner and it felt colder. I remember the tips of my toes, fingers and ears being cold even though I dressed warm.

When we would go hunting, it would usually be an all day event unless we got lucky and we’re able to get something right away. I had a new sense of appreciation after spending all day out hunting. After walking all day, hiking up hills, down trails, hungry,cold, and tired. It felt like heaven to finally get home and warm up, and enjoying some homemade fried potatoes with onions and deer steak.

Although, we did not Champion that day on getting a deer,”settled for tag soup” we definitely saw some wild life and it was an adventure I will always remember. We saw a black Bear and her two cubs (a sow) going up the Mountain Ridge near us.

However, the most unique wild animal we saw that day was a Cougar.We were walking up the logging road, walking upwards, and came upon a big Cougar. It was only about 10 to 15 yards away from us, if that, it was very close. We froze looking into the eyes of this big Cougar Cat. As it was looking at us as well. I noticed a tracking device around his neck, so this Cat was caught before by the Game and Wildlife organization. We had a good look at this beatiful Cougar Cat. The Cougar ended up turning and fleeing from us. We had our guns thank God, just in case. In the Northwest especially walking in the woods you should always be prepared. You never know what wildlife you’ll run into, or how these wild animals will react. I am glad we did not have to shoot it protecting ourselves. Close up I could not believe how large these animals are, just like Elk seeing them close up. This Cougar Cat was big,huge.


Don’t worry about what’s  right

Be territorial and put up a fight

Nevermind about others as long as your set up just right

Be territorial and put up that fight

Take and don’t be taken by others

How much is it worth , how far will you go to just take that territory that has not been rightfully yours.

Will you kill, will you steal to just have it all yours. Just because it contains gold.

You don’t like my home, so you just want to make it your own.

No comprimises,  no surprises, but  plenty of despises.

This land is your land this land is mine.