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So many reasons to not feel you are enough from others. So many reasons to pull away from people that you think are your friends or family. So many reasons to fall apart. So many reasons to not keep pushing to be your truest self.
It’s crazy what life can throw at you & how it can make you feel, act, or respond. The past two years has been such a learning curve for me. Honestly, so many changes, but also so many reasons why I would want to throw in the towel on so many people or things.
I suffer from depression & anxiety. My whole life I have suffered & conquered through these things that feel so fucking deep, you feel know one can, will, or wants to understand you. People literally have said to me, “just be normal or just be happy.” It’s beyond frustrating & really has lead to this post. If you’re still reading this thank you, if not, that’s your decision & I respect that. Again, not everyone can or will understand what I’m feeling or care for that matter & again that’s ok. I just wanted to maybe speak for others who are also suffering from these illnesses.
Its takes so much work & commitment to fight against something that is constant. Which in turn can make you feel either powerful & strong or weak & discouraged & worst of all, feeling not enough for anyone or anything. I do feel happy a lot of the time & feel like, I got this! Then other times, I’m questioning everything.
I am not the smartest, prettiest, or the strongest or suggest that I have the answer to it all, but I love fucking hard. It may not always look pretty, but it is everything that keeps me together. And that is one thing no one can take from me.
I wish people had more compassion for people who are at a constant war within themselves. We are NOT weak humans. We are strong. So PLEASE stop thinking that.To uphold yourself in uncomfortable situations & not fall apart is so hard.
I also though, get why sometimes it’s easier to walk away or push away someone like me. It’s hard & may be uncomfortable to be around someone who’s suffering.
But what I want others to understand is we are NEVER looking for you, someone or something to solve our illness. So, if anything, YOU be normal or happy around people you know that are suffering. We are only wanting others to support us, encourage us, & stand by us in ALL that we are, not just what you want us to be or how you feel “society” thinks we should be. Stop lying to yourself or others that need you the most or pushing us away like we are some disease.
Everyone has a story. Everyone has reasons why they are who they are. Listen more. Judge less. Have more compassion for someone who is different from you or maybe even different from anyone you know or hang out with. LOVE fully. Like really love someone even if they can’t fully love themselves. Dont give up on your friends who are suffering or push them away cause that’s just easier. Its ridiculous how others try to be or look so superior towards others anymore.
I am who I am, & I’m sick of feeling like I need to act or look a certain way for others. This yes, is my own stuff & I am working every day to become more fully in tune with who I am & who God has designed me to be. I use that I suffer from these illnesses as a tool to make myself into the person I know I am meant to be.
I may have to work at it differently than you, but that is ok & I will prevail, with or without you. Love me or hate me, that is absolutely up to you. That is the glory of being your own person. Again, please just stop trying to “fix” others & work on what you can fix within yourself to have more compassion for others who are different from you. Isn’t that what makes this world so incredible?? We are not meant to be like everyone else. We all have our stories to share & make this world worth living in. Please support others & not take them down with your own selfishness & judgement.
I am enough. Praise Jesus, I am enough.

By: Jenny R.

Myocardial Infarction- Heart Attack: 

Myocardial Infarction- Heart Attack: 

Please pause for 2 minutes and read this:

1. Let’s say it’s 7.25pm and you’re going home (alone of course) after an unusually hard day on the job.
2. You’re really tired, upset and frustrated.
3 Suddenly you start experiencing severe pain in your chest that starts to drag out into your arm and up in to your jaw. You are only about five km from the hospital nearest your home.
4. Unfortunately you don’t know if you’ll be able to make it that far.
5. You have been trained in CPR, but the guy who taught the course did not tell you how to perform it on yourself.
6. HOW TO SURVIVE A HEART ATTACK WHEN ALONE? Since many people are alone when they suffer a heart attack without help, the person whose heart is beating improperly and who begins to feel faint, has only about 10 seconds left before losing consciousness.
7. However, these victims can help themselves by coughing repeatedly and very vigorously. A deep breath should be taken before each cough, and the cough must be deep and prolonged, as when producing sputum from deep inside the chest. A breath and a cough must be repeated about every two seconds without let-up until help arrives, or until the heart is felt to be beating normally again.
8. Deep breaths get oxygen into the lungs and coughing movements squeeze the heart and keep the blood circulating. The squeezing pressure on the heart also helps it regain normal rhythm. In this way, heart attack victims can get to a hospital.
9. Tell as many other people as possible about this. It could save their lives!!
10. A cardiologist says If everyone who gets this mail kindly sends it to 10 people, you can bet that we’ll save at least one life.
11. Rather than sending jokes, please… contribute by forwarding this mail which can save a person’s life.
12. If this message comes around you… more than once… please don’t get irritated… You should instead, be happy that you have many friends who care about you & keeps reminding you how to deal with a Heart attack.

A heart attack occurs when one of the heart’s coronary arteries is blocked suddenly or has extremely slow blood flow. A heart attack also is called a myocardial infarction. The usual cause of sudden blockage in a coronary artery is the formation of a blood clot (thrombus).

Retrospective:

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Screwed or Skewed:

Daily word prompt Skewed

Her views of him were skewed after learning that he was married. He had been lying to her this whole time. She thought this was a man that she could spend the rest of her life with. He was charming,and he always knew the right things to say to her to melt her heart. She felt like a fool, so angry and hurt. He was just playing her all along. When she met him, she didn’t have much desire to even go out with him. She was very busy in her life with running her own business. She had her own knick knack shop, and it took up much of her time. When she wasn’t running the store, she was managing the book keeping, and working on the strategy of her business, and how she could make it more successful. Although, the business was not doing bad,and she contributed this with it being in a good location. Overall, she was pleased with the direction it was going.

She never felt so bad in her life as she felt at this particular moment; when she found out this bad news, she was getting very infatuated with this man who just recently came into her life. He also had children as well, she was devastated. She found out from a friend that lived near him after learning of him from her, It clicked who this person was, So the both of them decided to see if it was the same man they were referring to, They went to where he lived and varified that it was indeed him they were talking about.

Of course, when she confronted him he tried to make up a story that they are separated, but because of the kids he is still living there. She thought, ” such crap ” because she just witnessed him kissing his wife good bye when he was leaving the house. Although, hurt, and heart broken, feeling mostly humiliated she wasn’t going to let him destroy her confidenence in herself. She told him to stay out of her life and never come back to her store ever again, and if he did she would tell his wife. “Hit the road Jack and never come back.”

Skewed

This story is based on fictional literature.

THE SHORT STORY OF MANIC MIKE

Manic Mike messes around mimicking to himself all day long while hitting his mallet on a monkeys head until it is dead. Manic Mike is quite messed up in the head and should be locked up instead and put on plenty of meds. Manic Mike has never been much-loved by others. His mannerism in life is not much desired either. Manic Mike membranes are minimum. Manic Mike can’t stop hitting whatever gets in his way with his mallet. Manic Mike has a mean-streak and is very mischievous.Manic Mike might as well mallet himself, but instead he checks into a mental health facility and receives three square meals a day, and all the medical help he needs as long as he agrees to part with his mallet, take his meds, and listen to his mother.

Mallet

LATE BLOOMER:

 

in·cho·ate

inˈkōət,ˈinkəˌwāt/

adjective

just begun and so not fully formed or developed; rudimentary.

“a still inchoate democracy”
Daily word prompt:

Late Bloomer:
Life is when you grow up and your youth is robbed from you; you then start processing it in your mind of the events that had taken place and why. You wonder if you were pre-picked to endure such things and how you even survived.

Then, your paths are changed, based on your choices, and it starts to slow down, physically, and mentally. The moment your born you start to die, which is a part of life. Stages we all go through, some faster than others. Some are just less fortunate and inchoate slower; rather it be physiologically, or mentally, we all inchoate at our own pace, and time.

It’s how we handle and accept the things that come our way, whether it be good or bad. From time to time we can all use a helping hand, and should not be a shamed to ask.

Some goals or events happen quickly, and some take time to inchoate, some just never happen. Some individuals achieve what they want much later in life, and these individuals are called “Late Bloomers”.

Proverbs 3:5-6 New International Version (NIV)

5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.

 
Inchoate